me me and onli me...

2007-05-03T12:40:00.000-07:00

things have come to this outcome..

i should just let go everything and carry on as per normal right?

but i cant do it..simply cant. i cared about you too much during the last 9months we are together..too much that i cant bring myself to stop caring about you..stop worrying about you now.

i understand the situation perfectly. .
you are not mine anymore..
you have found a new love..
you wont care for me like you do in the past..
you dont love me anymore..
you are just too used to me caring & helping you do things that you dont know how to reject or cast me away..

EVERYONE around me simply tell me to GIVE UP..just give up! no point holding onto a r/s that doesnt belong to me anymore. i really try to giv up but i cant. i step back after taking the first step out. perhaps i will let go slowly..bit by bit ba. perhaps....
been scolded by friends around me.. say why cant i just wake up and see that he has walked away from me for good and wont be back anymore. i know i wont be able to hug him to hold him like mine anymore..not anymore but i really do and just will care about him like in the past. i have been beaten, scolded like hell and even being threatened that if i dont give up..the friendship will be gone. despite all this..i dont know why i am able or want to but i am doing it still.
maybe deeeep deeppp down in my heart i am still hoping that he will come back to me. but i understand fully that this is not going to happen to me. he has left..left me foe good.. no matter how i hope for him to stay. . . .
Just let me be till all hopes are dashed can..my darlings, my dearies, my friends?

right now my heart is so broken that it is so empty inside. i cant seem to get touched, angry, disappointed, sad, unhappy nowadays/recently le. why must my heart feel so empty? i feel like i am a robot with no heart at all...
but i feel that i am such a bitch also.. he already got a new girl but i am still not letting him go. i am cheapening myself to get his attention. is this what i should do? no! i know its not but i cant stop myself. even if i cheapen myself to get his attention..is only for that while.
his main focus has been shifted to other girl/s and not me. . .

sometimes i do feel his care and concern still but is all this real? or is just an illusion on my part or that he created it?

haiz.. i hate the way things turn out.
my weight has been dropping..from 55kg to 48/49kg.
is this how i should be? i dont think so. i am trying hard to eat..to stuff some food in my stomach but i just cant and do not have the appetite to eat. alot of people have been telling me..i have slim down alot.. i am too skinny now. should eat more. but i really dont have the appetite to eat. i know my decreasing weight is taking a toll on my health, my body. but i am just too tired to bother about this...

i just want my comfort zone..a place wher i will be protected from all bad stuff and able to move around with no worries =)
i am tired..tire out from all incidents.......
i want a good rest.. i want my holiday!!!! ='(

2007-03-02T01:10:00.000-08:00

Here's some pics to brighten up my blog =)

2007-02-28T02:02:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2007!!

its too late to wish everyone a happy cny but as u all know cny lasts for 15 days ma.. so i can still wish. better be late den never rite? hehe.

from chu xi to chu san.. i weant around relatives' houses and darlin relatives' house to bai nian and collect ang baos.
spend most of my time at darlin relative's house... gambling and chatting.

chu si.. meet up with the ee gongs..all 8 of us!! for steamboat. =) its rare for all 8 of us to meet up and hang out together so really treasure the time spent even though its nt a totally pleasant time for me (nt related to ee gongs).

chu wu..meet pauline at amk for dinner and catch-up session. after that meet darlin to attend funeral. im not a pang dang person so its alright for me to attend funeral during cny. haha. bai wu jing ji!

chu liu..meet ker darling at mos burger to study but we dint really study. keep chatting about our issues..girls talk. hahhaa. spend a long time with her and enjoying all the time spent.. we shall meet up again alrights? ;)

chu ji..its everyone birthday cuz its ren ri!! hahaa. went to a vegetarian dinner at Suntec with mommy, gramps, aunties and uncles. quite a grand event and the food are quite nice too.

chu ba..acc med go town for her stuff den went to bukit batok pasta mania for our late lunch. ahhaa. the pasta is okok only.. bugis pasta mania is still my fav!! meet up with darlin after that and hang out together.

chu jiu.. IMC paper! first paper for this sem.. and i hope i can pass ba. dont have the feeling i will score well.

i really dont know i should further my studies..getting a degree or step into the society to work first. i am beginning to lose my direction in life. i am at a loss at what i should do. dearies say should study first.. if work first then one will tend to lose interest in studying later on. mayb i will just study first ba.. but i dont wana study for the sake of studying like getting a diploma and drag myself through the process again. haiz. let me sort out my thoughts deeper...

the word 'marriage' keep popping into my mind nowadays.. should i or should i not? stepping into a marriage means a lifetime of committment and trust..
i know i agree by nxt year i will..i dont regret that decision but somehow i am doubting myself. . after all the incidents that happened. perhaps time will allow us to see things in a much clearer view. . .
to be able to stay by your side.. i am contented. no matter what the future holds..i am thankful for everything you have done & all the memories you have given me. . .

2007-02-11T23:52:00.000-08:00

never go out whole day.. stay at home and slack.
trying to do proj but nothing much came out.

saw something i shdnt see..dampen my mood. mayb its bliss to be ignorant ba. . .

2007-02-11T18:39:00.000-08:00

what is truth?

sometimes what u see might be the truth but unless u wana acknowledge it,
if not it will not be the truth..
thr truth you want.

2007-01-26T00:36:00.000-08:00

in a relationship.. is hanging on or letting go considered wise decision?

there's really nothing like forever.. everything is subjected to changes . every single issue/matter/people/thing will change as time goes by. sometimes people come and go.. some dont even leave a print in ur life but they are a part of ur memories.

what exactly is needed to sustain/maintain a relationship?
i dont know..
mayb.. trust, honesty, so-called chemistry?
many factors contribute to building a lasting relationship. .

i am tired really tired.. whethe in a r/s or not. . .

2006-12-31T17:12:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

a few more hours will be a brand new year - 2007 for everyone.
2006 is considered a good year for me..
-i get to spend so many time with the eegongs and get to know each other better.
-i get to know my laogong

i wont be making any new year resolutions because i wont be able to keep it. haha.

Dec 30

meet up with the eegongs + darlin ar for min and my bdae celebration
venue: marina square - MOF (Ministry of Food)
give out x'mas cards
exchange x'mas gifts with each other
(its abit late to exchange x'mas gifts but we got no time to meet up ma)
took group photos
too alot of girls photos
went to esplanade and chill awhile

really had sooooo much fun with my eegongs and darlin ar..
love ya =)

update photos later..

*i love u too much to let u go..

2006-12-10T23:15:00.000-08:00

went out with mom todae and bought 1 top and 1 pair of shoe. ahhaa. SHOE!! i just adore buying shoes la.. its my 3rd pair within 2 weeks. acutally not too bad ma..2 weeks only buy 3 pairs. considered alright le rite? wahaha.
had swensens for dinner with vinnce at thomson plaza.. the newly introduce happy feet baked rice is ok only. not very nice. their usual baked rice are still nicer lala. hahas.

*what i get is only tons of disappointment... really getting dishearted. . .

UPDATES...

2006-12-06T00:54:00.000-08:00

been a long time since i last blogged.. last entry at oct 15. hahaa. nearly 2 months le.

nothing much to blog becuz nothing interesting happen..

sch have started and projects have been piling up. have to rush the projects to meet the deadlines. its the last sem and i hope to have a good GPA to graduate.

times passes so fast and i am going graduate soon... the time spent with ee gongs are getting lesser and lesser.
just celebrate shi hui and li shi bdae and its gonna be my bdae soon. hehe. med bdae will be the last bdae we will celebrate together before all of us graduate. we shall spend as much time together as possible. =)

other than spending time with the ee gongs, i also spend time with my darlin dearie laogong. its been 4 months.. we has gone thr ups and downs and everything are still considered good between us. hope we will stil be as sweet as ever.
*im ur burden as well as ur xin fu. . . . what really shd i do...

nows its time for pics again!! (randomly)

2006-10-15T02:20:00.000-07:00

went out with pauline and have dinner at fish & co (wheelock place). ahahha.
i simply love the fried calamari there. the sotongs are so crispy and super chewy kaes!!
after dinner is our retail therapy and i bought a RED flesh imp jacket. hehe. love it so much. haha. slack at starsbuck (john little) for 1hr or so and we get to see so many disgusting incidents. yucks! but it didnt dampen our mood for cam whoring. lol.

shall meet up after my taiwan trip again.. *muacks*

here's the photos =)

2006-10-12T01:10:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY VINNCE =)

spend whole day with darlin dear.. buy mos lunch for both of us and reach his hse ard 12pm. hehe. his whole family at home and give me a scare. but his parents are nice people so ok la. ahaha.
slack till evening then go out to eat dinner.. after that went to playground and chat.
darlin dear wrote our names on the sand before we leave the playground. spend almost 12hours together.. im a happy dearie today becuz of the things he have done and the effort he put in. hahaa.

his workpiece

hope things get better and will be able to stay this way. dont let history repeat itself again.
BIG thanks to dearr jia, darling pauline, vinnce, kor and hong for listening to all my unsecured grumbles and nags. love yas.. muacks :)

2006-10-08T01:13:00.000-07:00

I MISS THE EE GONGS!! MISS MY DARLINGS!!

I WANT TO MEET ALL OF UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU =)

nothing much to update nowdays la.. its just work work work every single day. busy earning money for my trip and saving them up.
sometimes i dont know what to do in this r/s. i know i cant have the best of u but i just like being with u no matter how hard it is.

2006-09-25T01:27:00.000-07:00

sorry for neglecting this mickey blog for sooooo long.. i was so busy working and was damm tired everyday to even switch on my com. hehee. tml not working so able to blog now. ahaha.

my mom wants me to do a checkup so the nurse needa draw blood for me.. its so pain for me cuz I AM SACRED OF NEEDLES! my tears just flow down when i sae the needles on the table. so many people laugh at me. i mean everyone will have a phobia..mine is needles cannot izit? wth..
BUT
the second time the nurse come and draw blood for me.. i am alright with it le. i didnt cry anymore and watch the blood being drawn out from my veins. hehee. brave? lol.
i didnt get a reward for being brave lo.. i had a bruise left on my arm. the bruise seems like i am being tortured by other people. awhaha.
thats the pic:

dear has been coming my house and pei me for these few days.. and i finally took a pic with him. hahaa. those who know me so well will know what i mean hor. wahahaa.
sometimes my temper is just so bad la.. i also dono why.
*i know u noe ur limits de.. i will trust u (even though is hard)

2006-09-07T22:30:00.000-07:00

Whats the purpose of a blog?

its for people to write whatever they like..

i just want to write whatever i wish to write.

thanks jia, shihui, jue, yan fang, carel, pauline for all the advices and support.

i wont let myself fall too badly.. i will try to control myself. =)

2006-09-04T01:31:00.000-07:00

WHY are things going this way. .

izit im being too sensitive or izit ur actions

haiz. . . .

2006-09-01T01:57:00.000-07:00

I HATE U!!
I HATE LOW JIE YING!!
I HATE MYSELF!!

2006-08-31T00:08:00.000-07:00

This is just a post i am ranting my frustrations/thoughts/feelings..etc.
nothing on my day or whatever. so those unconcerned personnel can just navigate away becuz it will be a damm long post!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

im seriously having doubts in this.. serious or not.
if you are not tell me earlier.. if you are den i will be more den happy.
i dont wish to know you are doing that to me.. but if it is i want to know the truth.
i hate to be lied to. its a fact that everyone knows.
i will hate you if i found out the truth..really hate you. (even though i will forgive a period of time)
i rather face the cruel truth even though it hurts.
i really cant phatom what's in ur mind.
sometimes you seem so nice but at times you seem cold.
when i ask you that qn, i am prepared for the ans.
but still, i feel terrible when i know the ans.
my friends and i keep telling myself not to input too much into this.
those who care are protecting me by telling me that, but this is not within my control too.
i really feel insecure, no matter how hard i tried to assure myself.
if i am a gf that you dont wish or cant bring out and show ur friends den whats the point of staying together.
i am not implying anything but thats the impression i get.
some things are not meant to say out straight in the face or directly.
its for you to feel and take action about it.

i keep telling myself nothing will come out of this..but i dont wana giv up.
why?
i dont know.
mayb its becuz i just need someone there for me.. or i dont wana find anymore.
i am not sure what i really want so dont ask me.
i tend to hang on but able to fall in love easily with a new one.
this doesnt mean i dont like the prev just that i choose to push it to the back.
i am fickle..i know that well.
this is why i have so many exs.
having many exs doesnt mean i am cheap or whatever. just that i am able to fall in love faster den others.
i did put in effort in every r/s i have and treat every r/s with importance..regardless how long it last.
but i admit i put in alot alot alot of feelings only for 3 of them.

some people comment that i am so good..have so many exs.
sometimes i think having 1 or 2 ex only is not a bad thing. at least you wont be tired after having so many failed r/s.
having too many r/s will enable one to see more clearly towards guy.. as in choose a good guy?
NO..not at all.
if the guy really want to cheat on you and bent on not letting you find out. you wont be able to find out.. mayb will after you two break up or he told you after awhile. but defnitely not when he cheated on you.
i dont understand why guys want to two-timed? izit really so exciting?
have they not considered that when they two-timed, the girls are the one who will get hurt ultimately?
the guy will be so happy and yaya that he have two girlfriends but the girl's world just revolve around this only guy and put their whole heart in the r/s. if they choose this girl and dump the other one.. they will say sorry (at most) and continue his life with this other girl he choose. the thought that the girl he dumped will be so sad and heartbroken and might have phobia of being two-timed will never cross his mind.
alright not all guys are like that but minority of the guys are.
girls are sensitive beings.
we are able to sense something is wrong in the r/s we are in.
why cook up lies to cover for that only wrong that you commit. if you admit, we will be angry at you for 1 or 2 days. but if you choose to cover up, we will be hurt if we find out. why make ur gf feel hurt when letting her get angry will be a better choice (out of those two).
lies will make ur gf feel unsure whether they should trust you again.
i encountered so many lies, backstabbing that i am numb..really numbed.

why i choose to forgive someone that hurt me so badly?
no why.
i just think that so what if you hate that person.. it doesnt do me any good either.
yes, he have really hurt me..very very badly last time but whats done cant be undone.
hate him also have to carry on with my life.. forgive also have to carry on with my life.
i might as well forgive and carry on.. my heart will feel lighter also. a heart filled with hatred will be so heavy. (to me)

i dont understand why nowadays i tend to sink into a state of confusion with regards to r/s.
some things i choose to ignore and keep inside..hoping things will get better.
i really feel like venting everything out but i didnt.

2006-08-27T23:58:00.000-07:00

24/08
went to k-box (amk) with ee gongs dearies..but without hong. haha. before going k-box, we went to eat and play pool becuz 2pm den can go sing sing sing. ahaaaha. had some interesting encounters there. like jia say..those who want lan tao hua can go there see whether you have the luck anoth. hahaa. its been so long since i last sing and really enjoyed myself.
at night went to meet darlin dear..finally get to see him after 2wks of mugging.

25/08
meet pauline for some shopping before she went for her ipp attachment. haha. we went to town and walk ard before meeting med. we went to gelare and slack before i went to jue hse with jac.
i bought one top only. haha. need to find a job.. i am running out of cash liao.
anyone have jobs to intro?

26/08
spend a splendid noon with darlin dear before he meet his friends. ahaha. den went to find jia and help her out. had an encounter there but it means nothing to me. haha.

27/08
stay at hme for the whole day. haha. did nothing much except sleep sleep and sleep. ahaha. read through the basic theory book but nothing went into my mind. ehhe. hopefully i can pass my basic theory test tml.

*i really cant figure out wads in ur mind. i jus hope is nt wad i had in mind. *prayed*

2006-08-24T00:10:00.000-07:00

i am such a obedient girl these 2wks.. been studying and making notes in advance and try memorising. in the past i always memorise the day prior to the exam.
every exam i will always be the first few to go out of the exam hall. its so scary but i did complete my paper la. just find that its no use staying inside.. will keep checking and find more and more mistakes.

8 1/2 hrs later will be my last paper.. looking forward to enjoy myself after that. need to find a job also.. cant be rotting for 11wks ba. hehe.

*good luck..better win more money den i cant eat more belgian choco ice cream. =p

2006-08-19T02:25:00.000-07:00

Insecurities are swarming around me

Please just go away. . stay far from me.

2006-08-16T02:10:00.000-07:00

been mugging hard these few days due to the upcoming exams..making notes for Personal selling and Global Supply Chain. went to toa payoh and school to study on mon and tues respectively. i hate to write notes because it include so many chapters sia. i write till my hand wana break off liao.

13/08
had vegetarian lunch with my gramps near my house here. its been so long since i last saw my gramps.. all the projs and hanging out with my friends took up all my time. *guilty*
after lunch told mommy i wana reborn hair and we go central and ask around for the price. in the end went get to reborn my hair at $110. not much difference lo.. just that my hair is flatter and straighter.. well reborn ma. hahaa. wana go find darlin but in the end went home becuz no one picks up the call. hehee. at night still get to see lalaa.

12/08
meet ee gongs (minus lishi) to celebrate hong bdae.. his exact bdae is 11/08 la. haha.
before meeting them for dinner, i went for my weekly exercise with dearr jia.
we we went to suntec surf and turf for our dinner.. on the way there jia and i bought a choco exotic cake for hong. haha.
the food there are nice.. especially the wild forest mushroom soup. but the waiting time for the food is damm long la. almost make us lose our appetite. ahaha. but the chatting and gossiping makes up for it. hehee. hong say he dont want us to sing the bdae song but we purposely sing very very loud and make him pai sei. haha.
wanted to catch the fireworks but cant make it. acutally wana go esplanade but we keep walking in the wrong directions (mainly my fault) so we went to city link there and took photos..as usual la. ee gongs just adore cam-whoring session. wahaha. hong is the main character but in the end he was the photographer but he love the job.. better than cam-whore with us lo. hahaa. he is camera shy. hehee.
will upoad the photos for the next entry =)

missing my darlin..that idiot disappear liao.. got mahjong forget everything!

2006-08-11T00:18:00.000-07:00

Your sign is River in Chinese Horoscope
Your life is represented by the river of freedom, enjoying your unrestricted lifestyle very much. You like kind and committed people. You are talented, outstanding, smart, agile, and a quick learner with sharp observation, but execution ability is something you need to focus on.

Your characteristics, subconscious, and behavior modes, according to your fate and destiny, are represented by the river. You are born smart with a good learning ability; you have a quick reaction, sharp observation, and good analysis and communication skills. You like to find out the facts and reasons behind everything, and have unique analysis and judgement, but lack execution and action abilities.

The river can be very rough and quickly change directions, so your way of thinking is very active and creative because there are many things you want to do. The river is formed by many streams and eventually flows to the ocean; the water changing forms along the way. Similarly, you adjust yourself to fit the environment with many different identities, regardless of how bad the environment can be. You adjust quickly, but give the impression that you are not sincere with your words, as you always say different things to please different people.

The river flows continuously, hardly slowing down to water the ground, so you have a strong ability to think and plan, but less ability to take action. You have a lot of expectations in life and the ability to improve, but hardly take the necessary actions. You like gentle and kind persons, dislike hypocrites, and admire those who are mature, responsible, trustworthy and keep their words. In your entire life, regardless of the flow or direction, you are always able to keep an innocent, true heart to overcome all kinds of difficulties.

Health Analysis: The function of your nephridium water system is weaker.

According to your destiny analysis, the function of your nephridium water system is weaker. Your physical strength is not as good as others, and you always feel tired and have cold hands and feet in the winter. You have had no major problems when you were young, but over age 40, additional care of your nephridium water system is needed, or it may easily lead to blood pressure, anemia, heart problems and unsmooth periods, or even insomnia, accidie, cranial nerve anemic, hearing problems, kidney problems, urocystitis, urethrits, gynecologic problem, heart and blood vessel problems. Therefore, you should avoid fatigue, maintain a stable and regular lifestyle and schedule, and sleep and wake early in order to protect a congenitally weaker nephridium water system system. Also avoid iced and cold drinks and reduce the frequency of sexual activities in order to maintain good vitality.

There's a saying that all disease starts from the mouth, which means many human diseases are related to food. According to Traditional Chinese Medicine, food can be divided into gold, wood, water, fire and earth (concept of the five elements). You seem to prefer the salty flavors, especially in seasonings, which means your cells are filled with too much water element. This negatively affects your health, fortune and career, so we suggest you try different foods to balance your diet and nutrition, which leads to harmony in life and a balance of yin and yang based on the five elements. In addition, if you have recently felt unlucky or things were not going smoothly, then you are probably affected by bad spirit, which caused bad luck. The best solution is not to eat meat and fish for a period of time until the bad spirit goes away. The bad spirit tends to stay with those who eat meat and fish, and also chicken, duck, green onion, garlic, leek and other spices, so a vegetarian diet can help change your luck.

Health Analysis: The function of your respiratory system is weaker as well.

The function of your respiratory system is weaker as well, and you have had minor problems like allergies, runny nose, cough, cold, chest pain, diarrhea and constipation when you were young. But over age 40, additional care of your respiratory system is needed, or it may lead to nasosinutisis, asthma, bronchopneumonia, bronchitis, intestines polyp and proctitis. Therefore, you should avoid fatigue and smoking, maintain a stable, regular lifestyle and schedule, and sleep and wake early in order to protect a congenitally weaker respiratory system.

According to your destiny analysis, your working and living environment tends to be a bit messy and without good air circulation, which is not good for your respiratory system. You tend to be anxious, lack patience and tolerance, which means you don't get along well with friends.

If you want to change your fate and destiny, breath deeply for five minutes per day, maintain good air circulation, and open a window or door in your room. As long as you have sufficient oxygen in your body, your destiny will be completely changed with better health, more wealth and happiness coming into your life.

The way you get along with your boyfriend or husband is more like friends in an equal position looking for a mutual balance. You have your own territory, friends, and also insist on your own opinions, so some disputes and disagreements are unavoidable.

In romance, according to our analysis, you are easily attracted to someone you admire in your heart, but you often end up empty-handed because you are too shy to go after him. Generally speaking, men do not have deep first impression of you, so they need time to discover your inner beauty. You, however, tend to like a person at the first sight, but not after a period of time. Therefore, if you are still waiting for a good romance, try to show your inner beauty by doing more activities, establishing better habits, and socializing with more people. This way you can express your inner beauty naturally all the time, which makes your romance go more smoothly.

In the journey of life, your romantic or marriage partner might be introduced by relatives and friends, or through matchmaking. You tend to be inexperienced in love, unable to express yourself, and do not know how to actively pursue someone without being too sticky or giving up easily. You have opportunities but are afraid to get hurt, so eventually it is not easy for you to have the spark of love. If you are still seeking your love partner don't rush because someone nearby likes you, so as long as you sincerely give a little hint, the happiness is right beside you.

Career and Wealth Analysis: You know how to make money, but it is not easy for you to hold onto your money.

According to your destiny analysis, you know how to make money, but it is not easy for you to hold onto your money. Your life is more philosophical, so you are not stingy with yourself, family or friends. You spend what you have even when you are financially tight, and are generous when you are financially comfortable. Because of this, it's not easy for you to save your money. In addition, you maybe convinced easily by friends to make some financial investments that cause you to lose money. You like to make many friends, so you easily lose money if you cannot evaluate risk or reject people when they approach you for investment. You will spend most of your wealth doing things you want to do throughout life because you consider only money spent as the wealth actually owned by you. Afterwards, you will bequest most of your wealth to your descendants.Ba Zi Chart

people can try this la. i think that its 90% accurate for me lo. no harm trying.. good luck =)

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2006-08-09T02:19:00.000-07:00

i just want a simple r/s where i know i am important.
i dont want to step into the state of confusion simply because of your actions.
you might not think what you do will affect me but it does.
i will try to take it in stride and constantly remind myself so i wont get so bothered.
i will believe whatever you say because i trust you.
dont let the trust be destroyed.
always think twice before you do anything.
sometimes you think that this matter is not important but to me might be vice versa.
i will be as understanding as possible.
but always know there is a limit to everything.
if you cant change i will try to accomodate but dont take it for granted.
sometimes saying sorry wont mend things.
i really cant fathom what's on your mind.
i just want to be a happy dear and not let my darlings n dearr worry.
if the beginning starts too early, i hope the ending wont come so early.

right now i am totally drained out.. seriously drained. give me a good night's rest please.
dont ask questions at all.

BIG THANKS to H for accompanying me just now.. i appreciate the effort =)
HUGS to darling ker for giving me advices n support ;)
KISSES to dearr for being along side with me all these while =]

2006-08-07T02:15:00.000-07:00

life is often filled with uncertainties.. always. i just want all troubles to steer clear of my way and give me a peaceful road to walk on. i dont need alot of friends to be by my side..just a few that i can count on.
nowadays my mind just seem to jump to other stuff on its own. thinking whether i should do this or that. until i can figure out what i really want.. i think i should just keep mum and inhale everything first before deciding what i should exhale out and what i should keep.
a jumbled state im in.. period.

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anyway..i just upload the photos i took with darling ker, tong jue, jac and pauline when we meet at bishan on 3 aug. which is lyk 4days ago la. i just dont have the mood to upload or blog about my days. but i guess blog with only words will be boring. so i will post the pictures of my fav darlings le.
as usual.. i took alot of photos with pauline lala. haha.

2006-08-06T03:19:00.000-07:00

what i want?
exactly what i want?
i miss you.. i really do.
but so what?

haiz. . .

my mind are all jumbled up.

i need time..just time.

i miss my darlings.. i need a talk to help me see the path to take.
thanks dearr for always being there.

#edited#

2006-07-29T03:16:00.000-07:00

had a great time with gene, roger, ken and meishan. =)
mit up with gene ard 7 and we went to the new cathay to buy tickets for lake house becuz they wana watch but the 740 slot was sold out and we wont be able to make it back home if we caught the 950 show. asked roger, ken and meishan to go cine buy tickets since cine had e 9pm slot. haha. but in the end we didnt get to watch any movie la. hehe.
wanted to find a place and had our dinner but all the places we chose seemed so packed with such a long queue forming outside the restaurant!! haha. maybe its due to us that people wanted to go try ba. hehe. *puke*
anyway we settle our dinner at crown-swensen and i managed to bully roger again..after so many months. *evil grins* wanted to go to coffee bean at paragon but was full so proceed to taka but it was closed. no choice walked to wisma and saw that they were having midnight sale. wahhaha. gene bought stuff from topman and after that we went to starbucks and slack till almost 12 before i took the last train home.
it was so fun being out with gene and all again.. i really miss those times.
photos will be up when i get the photos from gene kaes.

some incident happened and i was so damm bloody pissed. but luckily gene was around and i simmer down. but till now i am so pissed. called jia and talked while i was in town too but still pissed la.
i dont understand why people just cant be impartial. maybe if is me i also cant be so impartial but at least i will try to maintain a professional image and wont show my disgust out so obvious. arghhhhH!!!!!!

thanks to:
gene - who helped me so much just now and keep my pissed-ness to the lowest. haha. always willing to take photos with different poses with me and tahan my zi-lian-ing ;p
jia - who listened to all my frustrations with no complaints everytime. will offer me nothing but the truth.
pauline - that always listen to my crap but know exactly how i feel and also offer the truth to me. been so long since we chatted so long over the phone. its just a nice feeling.
really thanks for listening to my 'lao sao' :) *muacks*

*walking alone on this land.. but i know somehow i will cope with it.

2006-07-26T23:57:00.000-07:00

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Sample Reading for Low Jie Ying

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Personality and Character

You possess sixth sense and can detect danger or threat from miles away. You will never leap widely, rapidly or dashed into decisions or relationships without making a careful study first. You are an outgoing and extroverted person. You also have the endearing ability to laugh at yourself and poke fun at your own mistake. You know how to invest your time and money wisely. (i do not know how to invest money properly de.. haha. but the rest are accurate)

You are a gifted person who can accomplish a great deal if properly motivated. You are also good at know-how to manage, handle and use others through your diplomatic talent. You are fast in reacting to situations, catching opportunities and can see what people want from you.

Romance and Compatibilities

You are a practical and loving person but maintain a dignified surface and will not show your desire openly over love affairs. You are attracted to tangibles and people who can perform rather than appearance. Always attracted to exotic, or someone utterly different. Taurus and Virgo born in Dog/Pig/sheep years settle comfortably with you. (yeah, the first thing i look for in guys are character and not appearances. haha.)

You are open and explicitly sexual with men. You like to teach and train your men as lovers and so you often choose younger men as your lovers. (i dont like younger men..eeeee! this is not accurate. hehe)

Profession

A law-abiding person and social norms are very important to you. So that profession requiring such high degree of transparency and serious character is good for you. Jobs like auditor, executive officer of financial institutions and public civil services are suitable for you. You can operate best at a cooperative atmosphere rather than shouting or ranting orders to getting things done. You can also accept orders and conform to rules imposed by your boss without making much fuss. Other jobs suitable are entrepreneur, adjustor or lecturer. (this is true true..ahaha. so i can consider opening a shop of my own liao. yipee!)

You will achieve much success in the financial field like mortgages, financial futures, stock broking and money market. You are capable in planning, building, developing and operating a business enterprise. In short, you hope to become a capitalist and you often associate with people in high places.

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get this from tong's blog and its quite accurate la. hahhaa. kit also try this out and thinks that its accurate for him too.
credits goes to tong jue =)

http://www.adestiny.com/bazi_report/sample

Jia bdae celebrations + Napfa

2006-07-24T00:50:00.000-07:00

22/07
happy birthdae dearr!
finally one year older for jia liao.. i still another 5 months before i turn 19.
anyway i went to meet her in tamp cuz i wana visit my cousin but she is not feeling well and went back to hosp for checkup. made a wasted trip to her house but lucky got jia with me la. i am really idiot in tamp. dont understand why tamp must be so big sia. hahaha.
its already 5plus and we are running late in meeting the rest so we just took train to town and i went to buy a pair of slippers to change cuz my heels were too big liao.
hehe. meet min, med and hong at cine but chicago steakhouse is full and the manager said that he will call once there are seats for 8. haha. no choice so just went to find some place to sit. its almost 8 before we got a place to sit but shihui and victor haven reach yet. lishi not able to come becuz its her daddy bdae celebrations also. med and i went to buy cake for jia after ordering our food. we went to nydc and see is there any oreo cake but their cakes were considered expensive la. haha. moreover that chicago steakhouse said that their fridge didnt have enough space for cakes. so in the end we went to swensens and buy black forest cake cuz their cake is able to leave out in the open for 1hr. hahaha. by the time we went back to steakhouse, sh and vic reach and place their orders liao. haha. guess we took quite awhile ba. hehe.
the food is quite nice lalal.. and the pricing are affordable. out of 5 stars.. i give 4 ba. =)
after dinner, we went to take photos and it took us 1hr plus. haha. hong have to pei us girls take photos and neoprints. hehe. but he is nice la will acc us help us take photos.
any girls out there want him?

21/07
had napfa and i managed to pass all the stations except 2.4 la. anyway i also dont intend to pass de la. hahaha. i got a certificate of participation. happy liao. hahah. but hor.. get muscle ache sia.
after napfa went to meet ker they all in pierce. by the time i reach there quite late liao and most teachers went back le but i still get to talk to some of the teachers that taught me before.
went to thomson plaza hans and had my dinner and went home after that.
going back to pierce made me review those fun times i had.. running ard the sch playing, sitting in the cateen chatting, talking to teachers for gossips, etc. pierce also allow me to meet my darlings that stood by me for soo long that i will treaure forever. i wont regret meeting them and going to pierce to complete my sec school studies.

*u wont noe hw happy i am to see u. . .

2006-07-19T01:03:00.000-07:00

nowadays there is nothing interesting to blog about. hais. life is so mudane to me. what's revolve around me are projects projects and projects again! aiyo. got presetations next week and the following week. all my 6 modules have to present but i haven even manage to complete one of them. but i will get it done before the deadline de. at the most chiong thr the nite again ba. hehe.

dont understand why there are free-riders in the world.. and people that doesnt see facts before that talk. for free-riders there will be no cure for them cuz they will just slack in every module. as for people who doesnt see the facts before bad-mouthing people, please get the facts right before you blackmouth people can. really dont understand why there are people who didnt do much will say those that did their work. if you dont know this person really well then dont just make assumptions based on the actions. skipping classes doesnt mean one dont know how to study and dont care about school work kaes.. some people have the ability to skip classes and still achieve desired results. whereas i dont think you have that ability right? so stop your mouth from talking so much idiotic crap. arghhh!!
what are friends for? is to stand by each other and encourage each other not indirectly criticise. if you think that the person is free-rider or you dont like that person then dont go make friends. being friend have to be true and honest with each other. there might be time where you make mistakes but being so fake is unforgivable. dont have too much confidence in yourself also.. not a very good thing cuz you will be so high up and make yourself out to be so ugly! i mean UGLY! if you are so two-sided then fuck off.. stop being a friend to other people. dont be such a hypocrite!!!

*will time drive us apart..so far that i cant reach u?

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2006-07-16T02:30:00.000-07:00

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2006-07-16T02:14:00.000-07:00

didnt mange to swim todae.. cuz it was drizzling when we are going to the swimming complex. ahhaa. so went to jia house and bathe if not i will be so smelly sia. hee. den we go eat and walk ard TM and Century Square. after that went to town to meet med and min.
med was hungry bt not very hungry so we went to galilee and eat. ahaa. so it means i get to see two days in a row. med order jumanji and strawberry smothies and i order cheddar cheese fries and strawberry tea freeze. we slack there for like 2+hrs. hehee. while eating, we took photos, gossiping and play childhood games. hahaha. its so fun lala. next time den teach u all!! hhaaa.

*i really feel so man ju and glad i am able to see u twice in a row =) just seeing u make my day

Pepper Lunch!!

2006-07-14T23:50:00.000-07:00

Who has went to PEPPER LUNCH to eat Before?
Tag me cuz there is a survey for you to do..
Thanks =)

its part of the market research project. so bloddy tedious. why not many people went to pepper lunch and try before de. just go and try la. and can help me do survey liao!! hehe.

*many questions form in my head.. wondering and pondering so many issues.

2006-07-11T01:20:00.000-07:00

09/07
finally get to eat my steamboat.. thanks to tong jue & jaclyn! love ya.. muacks. pauline & ker cant join us but i stil love them.
went to bugis steamboat cuz its raining so its inconvenient for us to go marina. haha. but bugis is so damm packed and the boss didnt even want to serve us. in the end we took a cab and went to marina. even though its raining.. the place is still filled with people eating steamboat. haha. we are so smelly when we finish eating so we wana go play pool but the rate is $8.40/hr..its like so EXPENSIVE! so we went to bowling/arcade there and walk around cuz we wana vomit liao. hehe.
we took train back home and that tongjue just hit me on my thigh lo. arghhhh... its so damm painful kaes. i literally scolded fuck and cuz many people to look at our direction. i beat her thigh back but she was wearing jeans so feel nothing.. upon hearing that.. i just hit her hand.

here's the pic of our 'injuries'

red ba? ahhaha. i am darker so cant really see the redness but u can ask jac how red my leg is OK. heehe.
well really enjoyed the steamboat with them.. next time must go bugis to try cuz their soup base smells really nice. yummy.

steamboat craving!!

2006-07-09T00:11:00.000-07:00

Craving for steamboat now!!!
*hints* WHO wana go eat with me??

i miss the hot egg soups with all the herbs inside.. so yummy licious. haha.

jus a random entry... tata.

*feel contented if i get to see u just once a wk =)

2006-07-07T01:57:00.000-07:00

28hrs a day for me?
i need so many hrs to complete projs + ample sleep + hanging out

* thinking of u.. are you doing the same? obviously not.

Ee Gongs Names!!!

2006-07-04T00:25:00.000-07:00

hahah.. ee gongs now got so many diff names. but of cuz our main names are ee gongs la. haha.

before ee gongs names come.. we already have names given by ah bu. she give us based on our appearance de. haha.

Appearance Names
Hui min--> ah bu
Med--> ah siao
Jia--> baba
Shihui--> da tou
Lishi--> dua nei
Jieying--> ah pui

how ee gongs dearies clan came about?
min is our ah bu so naturally we take after her surname..Ee. i was so gong so they always call me ah gong. combine together will be ee gong.. sounds like korean name rite? hahaha. so in order for all of us to have a korean name.. we will take after the ee gong. haha.

Korean names
Huimin--> Ee Gong Tai
Med--> Ee Gong Da
Jiajia--> Ee Gong Er
Shihui--> Ee Gong San
Lishi--> Ee Gong Shi
Jieying (me)--> Ee Gong Wu

the last name is according to the our birthdate so i am the youngest. ahhaa.

that time in lecture hall.. i am so bored. med also la. then i was telling her sp told me on msn what's the meaning of my name..JY. haha. is jieying jiayou! so med and i think of names for the others..with the help of lishi also. hehe

Initials of names
Hui Min (HM)--> hui min hao mei
or
hui min hmm mmm
Med Hew (MH)--> med hew mei hor
Jia Jia (JJ)--> jia jia just joking
Shi Hui (SH)--> shi hui super hiao
or
shi hui shh hhh
Li Shi (LS)--> li shi loving sweet
or
li shi lao sai
Jie Ying (JY)--> jie ying jia you

just awhile ago.. we are talking on msn.. jia, min, med and i. during the conversation.. our cheena names are created. hahaha.

Cheena names
Hui min--> Tai Gu
Med--> Da Gu (big gu)
Jia--> Er Gu (er is hungry in chinese)
Shi hui--> San Gu (san is skinny in hokkien)
Li shi--> Si Gu (si is 'dead' in chinese)
Jie ying--> Wu Gu (wu gu is innocent in chinese)

tata.. that's our names in so many difficult countries. haaha. the ee gongs have korean names, chinese cheena names and the name of our initials. hehe. there will be more to come rite dearies?

Townie trip

2006-07-03T23:45:00.000-07:00

30/06
okok..now its the update about the town trip with the ee gongs.
hee. finally the ee gongs can go out again..go shopping together. went to town straight after school cuz med need to rush back for her tkd in the evening. so we look around for her bag but she didnt manage to buy any bag la. nt enough time for her to walk about also.
i manage to buy a adidas running shorts and nike bottle using the vouchers given by lishi. haha. 3ojune is the expiry date and we had to buy our things by that day. hehe. vouchers means discount so i will be tempted to buy alot of stuff. hahaa. i wana buy a nike shoulder bag.. jia got the sling bag but in the end never buy. i dont really like it la. haha. look around again ba. hehee.
its dinner time.. lishi and andy wana go home eat..shi hui also going home to eat so left jia and i. so naturally went to our usual hangout and had our dinner. i order shroom spaghetti and jia order teriyaki burger but when our order come.. something is missing from her order. haha.

is egg without yolk!!! haha. weird rite? seems like the egg yolk is being taken out de not that its forgotten. haha. so i laugh very very loudly lo. really funny when you are there and the order is just right infront of you. so called the waiter and ask him why no egg yolk de. haha. he stunned awhile and asked jia whether she want egg yolk. she said yes and the waiter go get the egg yolk for her. he came with a plate and he said: 'we cant just give you the egg yolk so give the egg with yolk together.' hahhaa. i start laughing again lo. just cant stop.
here's the egg with egg yolk!!

we have been discussing about betting for england vs portugal match but from what i heard only centerpoint have singapore pools. but i do not know the exact location so still dont know should go buy anoth. haha. so i decide to ask jf see whether he know anoth. he said:'singapore pools ar..lucky plaza have ma. at b1.' its so near so we decide to go find. if able to find then we will bet..if cant find then dont bet lo. haha. we found the place so just place our bet. hahaa.

???

2006-07-01T04:27:00.000-07:00

you make me. . .
fall in love with you at first sight
develop feelings for you
wana be together with you
understand relationship must have give and take
know the importance of trust
know that whats over is over
treasure memories of the both of us
realise that dont ever hestitate to do what you have in mind
really scared of love
lose the only confidence i have in r/s
dont wana fall in love again

right now. . .
i am happy with my lifestyle
i love my friends and family
i just concentrate on studies
i really miss you..really do

in the future. . .
will you come back to me
will you find a new gf
will i find a new bf
will i ever input 100% feelings

nothing is confirmed in this world. i am so tired now. not gonna think of anything else. will update on today's trip to town after i get my pics. i just wana have a good sleep.

ENGLAND..win the match against PORTUGAL!! GOGOGO!!

Run RUn Run

2006-06-28T23:50:00.000-07:00

hehe..went to run around 630 and ran till 705. feel so good to sweat.
haha. will run again tml if i have the time again.
nafa is coming and i need to build up my stamina.. hopefully can pass my 2.4km run.
jia..we must encourage each other!! run more..exercise more!!

feel so tired now.. wana orh orh le. tml class at 8am.. arghhhh

*just feel so happy to be able to talk/sms you..*contented*

ENGALND..All The Way

2006-06-26T21:00:00.000-07:00

yesh! england won the match against ecuador..1-0.
i bet 2-0 so in the end lose. haha. but nvm..at least england won the match.
all thanks to beckham's free kick that got in. hehe.
think that after goal at the 60 mins, the england players got tired and didnt attack so much le. 3 mins before the match ended, lennon sub beckham and he is the only one that keep going after that ball. haha.
dont ever say beckham is old and should stepped down as a captain kaes. he did his work as a captain.. he scored for this match.
hope england is able to go all the way and beat all the other teams la. hehe. brazil also must jia you..

ok.. i said my piece liao. whahaa. anyway i also lose the portugal vs holland match(1-0) but i bet that it was a draw. hahaa. dont have the luck for soccer matches. hehee.

i wana buy new tops tops tops. but no money... who wana sponsor me?? *winks*

Exercise time

2006-06-25T03:40:00.000-07:00

went swimming with jia for our once a week exercise. haha. maybe been too long since i last swam, today swim seems out of breath. but after a few laps, i am getting the hang of it liao. both of us wana bet on germany vs sweden match de but in the end didnt get to bet. because both of us are dummbies..dont know how to shade the correct boxes. hahaa. so in the end didnt match. another reason was that i am not sure what will be the exact score.. not much bao wao. heee.
anyway luckily i never bet cuz i guess that the score is 2-1..germany winning. but the score is 2-0. well germany win can le. germany score 2 goals within 15mins. its like so damm fast kaes. wahaha.
looking forward to england vs ecuador match at 11pm.
ENGLAND..SCORE SCORE SCORE!!

hols will come to an end soon.. projs and tests will be occupying my time le.

hope i will graduate smoothly and my 3yrs of poly life will come to an end. glad that i have a bunch of friends that i can count on. alot of things have happened during these 2+yrs.. make me realise and grow up. there's no point hating people who hurt you deeply because you are the only one who knows but not the person you hate.
forgive and forget? someone told me i am able to do so but he/she cant. he/she can only forgive but wont be able to forget. i dont mean totally forget but just treat it as a lesson learnt and move on from there.

i am so thankful and grateful that i still have tong jue, kerlyn, pauline, jaclyn.. all these darlings whom i know in sec school that will always support me and gave me words of advice. even though we dont meet often but we can still count on each other if something happen. i really appreciate for all that yoou all have done.

people always say poly friends all those superficial friends and wont last after graduate. but i know i have met a group of friends that i will still keep in contact with..no matter how long.. especially jia.

Tong jue..look forward from now on. if there's anything just give me a call or drop me a sms. dont worry that you will wake me up. you are my darling like i am yours rite? ;0)

ENGLAND vs SWEDEN

2006-06-21T03:54:00.000-07:00

ENGLAND SCORE!!
THREE CHEERS FOR THEM..
HOORAY HOORAY =)

MICKEY!!!!

2006-06-18T04:20:00.000-07:00

CUTE?
dont care..must say cute ar. its my favourite mickey!!
THANKS SHIHUI =) I LOVE IT *muacks*
she is the one who ask me to paste and see.. happy sia. can see such a lovely mickey.. tomorrow surely will be a enjoyable day for me =)

what have i been doing ??

2006-06-18T03:55:00.000-07:00

17/06
went to my cousin house and swim this afternoon. its the first time i swam alone cuz my bro wana play game and my cousin hurt her hand. i reach her house then i knew abt it. hais. so fat liao.. so have to swim to shake off my fats. i went downstairs and swam on my own. try to swim as fast as possible so i can go back. had long john for dinner and reach home poo le. yippee. er xin lala..i know.
hehee. just reach home not long. went to vinnce house and watch soccer again. haha. acutally i went there and played game more than watching soccer la. i just manage to get on hands experience on playing the game and it seems fun to play. its liked a mind strategy game ba.. have to be focused. in this way mind wont get rusty liao. lol.
tml hopefully i can stay awake and watch my 3am match. :)

16/06
had a gathering with my sec school darlings. met up for dinner and then catch a movie. caught silent hill but its abit disappointing. didnt seem as interesting as it portrayed.. not enough horror and the ending is not what i wish for.. plus the story seemed far stretched. rate it 2.5/5 nia.
our class guys missed their homes alot so they maked sure they got home before 12am. goodness. its nothing interesting to mention la. perhaps next time organise a bbq then outcome will be better.
anyway enjoy the rest of the night with ker and jac la. =)
we shall enjoy ourself next week when we mit up kaes.. no guys tagging n spoiling!

alrights.. gonna log off and sleep liao. nights everyone *sleepy smiley*
*hope you are safe and sound..thats what matters

ENGLAND WON!!

2006-06-16T03:45:00.000-07:00

hahaha. went to vinnce house and catch England vs TnT.
its already half time and the score is 0-0. i was like: 'england buck up can!!'.
gonna fall asleep when Crotch score the first goal at the 83mins.. yippee!! i was shouting and i am sorry if i woke any of you all out there up kaes. i am just too excited laa. vinnce n ah yi hope that the score will stay that way but to their dismay.. gerrad score the second goal at the 91mins. yeah yeah!! beckham is still dashing as ever and whenever i get to look at crotch.. my mood will lighten up mans. hehhe.
.
..
...
I Support England!!!!!

went town with mogu.. i was late again..as usual la. but mogu also know that i will be late so we arrived around the same time. haa. had to settle our MR company so went to pepper lunch and had a talk with the manager there. he is very nice and gave us the no of their admin manager. mogu bought a pair of heels at charles and keith when we ware walking to scotts. she was hungry so we went to eat pasta mania and had some chat over the dinner. after that i called the admin manager.. Mr Kofune. he is also very nice. ask us to send him our research objectives so that he will have an idea how to help us in this proj.
walk to taka m)phosis and buy hp pouch for my mom.. then to heeren and walk around. bought a pair of shoes there.. haha. but the shoes are too tight so e sales personnel enlarge for me. i told them i will go back and take. well.. i literally forgot all about it till i came out of the toilet at e 3rd floor with mogu then i remembered. hahaa. sotong. we went back to take the shoes then walk to taka cuz i wana buy m)phosis slippers. meanwhile mogu saw a polka dot hairband on a girl's head and we ask where she get it from. haha. guess what she replied? she said she buy it from heeren. *faint* haha. we went to buy my slippers and walk to heeren AGAIN. ahhaaha. but she dont liked the one at heeren but the one at m)phosis. *diaos* so we walked back to taka once again.
then finally we went to take train and go home le. =)

i dont envy couples liao..dont know why. last time when i see couples i will be so envious and hope i will have a bf that is as caring as other people's bf. but now when i see couples.. its just like any couple on the street. nothing special about it.
hais. mayb i am really afraid/scared/unwilling to try le ba. love is just not in my league anymore. i just wana be single and enjoy my friends' care and concern. if i am deemed to be single then so be it. no point trying another r/s when the result will be the same. what for allow myself go through the pain again.
even i dont need love doesnt mean i wont fa hua ci. every girl will de ma.. tell me who dont ar? i will still comment on shuai ge n ugly guys but my heart will stay closed and shut tight. wont be easily moved by guys le. twice is enough. the breakup reason.. the dont-wait excuse. i really had enough.
*please dont let me find out the truth if not i will surely hate you de.

Retail Therapy does Help??

2006-06-15T01:16:00.000-07:00

accompany my mom (off day) go tiong bahru market.. its being renovated so the air vantillation part is much better.
at first was reluctant to go cuz not enough sleep and my mood was bad to the extreme due to wadever happen. almost shouted at her but in the end.. think of the part that my mom only has 1 off day per week and always dote on us. so i drag myself out of bed and go with her and my two grans.
too me.. tiong bahru market is a place that sells things suitable for aunties only but this trip changed my opinion totally. hehe. i saw the pants at far east that i wanted to buy there!! and its so much cheaper!!
so in the end i bought 3 bottoms and 2 tops. whaha.
after that went to compass point to shop for fathers day gift cuz my mom have metro vouchers ma. the nearest metro will be compass point le. hee. i was thinking i have bought alot of clothes today and had to stop le. . . but but but... i bought 1 top, 1 bag and 1 wallet.
naturally after buying all the things i feel much better but at the same time guilty. my mom always spend so much on my bro and i.
well i guess retail therapy does help me in a way or other. but my mood still not back to wadever it should be. wadever.

tml meeting jia go town.. have to settle our AMR company and start on projs le!!!!!!!!!

came to realise alot of issues now.. have to let go and think ahead rather then harping on wad had happen. i am grateful that i always have a bunch of friends that understand how i think.. the reason for my actions.
realise time passed so fast also. cant believe that i have known jue for 10yrs.. ker and jac for 7yrs.. pauline for 5yrs.. and my 4E2 close budds. i miss sec sch life.. the laughters & gossips, hanging out after school, even the quarrels we had with each other (regards to jue) or with other people. no matter how long we never contact each other.. we will still miss each other.. will make an effort to meet. all my ups and downs are witnessed by you all and what i received are the concern.. the care.. the support that i need the most. looking forward to the gathering on tml =)
Tong Jue: come back soon kaes.. missed by me!!

A Happy Me!!

2006-06-11T01:35:00.000-07:00

09/06
EE GONGS SHOPPING TRIP =)
Wheee.. ee gongs(jiajia, medeline, shihui, li shi, huimin) + victor (shihui ai ai) finally go on a shopping trip together. its FUN! wahaha.
we went town after class and went to wisma to shop for ah bu dress.. but dont have so proceed to far east wher min bought her dress. i saw the dress the moment i step into that shop.. but i dont have any occasion to buy lala. anyway.. it looks simply fabulous on min lo. *drools* ehehe.
Had pepper lunch for dinner but it sorta spoil our mood but luckily it never. firstly when we enter, the captain, TONY ask us to keep aside..dont block the way. BUT we are not blocking the way. when we went in, he just ask us to place order without letting us to look at the menu and decide. i went there before so i know what to eat but the reast doesnt have any clue. secondly, one waitress spill a cup of lemon tea on jia.. DIRECTLY. she is quite kan chiong as the food arrive all at once and the place is quite cramped so she is trying to move the drinks to 1 table and then the drink just spill onto jia's bag.. all of it. OMG! jia literally scold FUCK out.. anyone will do that when you encounter that incident. lucky her bag is pvc so wont leave any stain behind. when we are walking out of pepper lunch, there is this girl that keep laughing over jia spilled drink.. make me irritated that i just say her. have some courtesy and stop laughing over people's misery. you will get karma de!!! we had our dinner le then fill in the feedback form. 7 of us. after that we hand them to the manager and he read it on the spot. after that he promise that he will talk to tony and will provide good service the next time we went there. he gave us complimentary ice cream. hehee. i think brenda lim did a good job in teaching us. now we are so particular about service attitudes. ahaha. bt we wont get karma ba *pray hard hard* :)
After dinner go heeren walk walk.. went to flesh imp and saw a charming guy. he got that x-factor in him lala. well.. min bought 1 jacket, jia bought a shirt and jacket, med bought one shirt and we get a membership card. whaha. we keep getting memberships cards nowadays. walk around heeren after that and i was kinda wondering whether that guy got a gf and ask the rest of them. when my curiousity is being aroused.. there is no way to curb it. so in the end i went back to ask him. hehehee. took neoprints also.. its the FIRST TIME e 6 of us took neoprints so i am super happy. whaha. but have to wait till kor scan den can upload.
after that go cine and we stay in blossom for 1 hr plus. cant believe time passes so fast there. in the end i bought a top there. med bought tube and spag.. min also bought a spag. wow! look forward to seeing her wear. went galilee and bought my smoothie but.. it was nothing happy.
reach home ard 12 plus..
*ur action/attitude simply affects me sooo much . . .

10/06
Met darling tj in town but it was nothing to mention ba. since nothing good turn out. but i still wana thanks darling for all this kaes. love u..muacks.
Went chomp chomp with vinnce and we ordered yummy food.. have stingray, kailan, la la, sugar cane and rice. hehee. i dint have breakfast and lunch so combine all 3 meals into 1 and eat. haha. lyk pig ba. i still wana eat so we walked to a dessert cafe called ICE. hehee. they serve delicious main course, ice creams, and alot. but i forget liao. ahaha. their ice cream + ambience = heaven. i will try their choco fondue next time. sinful indulgence.*licky* wahaa. i was so full by then and keep wanting to burp. er xin?? dont care! haha.
Had to go ntuc and buy tibits and go vinnce house watch soccer match. its ENGLAND vs PARAGUAY . of cuz i will wana watch cuz beckham is inside ma. the match was ok lala. first goal was shot in after the game started 3 mins and the score stay that way throut the game. the referee is ma chiam biased lo. when paraguay player knocked n pushed the england player, it not foul. but when its vice versa.. it foul. damm it! the referee is like xiao xing.. oblivious to some things (said by rui wen). whahahaha.
learn a new game and trying to master it. heehe.

i am such a happy girl these 2 days.. but if something happen den i will be a even happier girl =o)

--> such a naggy n draggy post rite.. but bear with it ba. *winks*

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Updates. . .

2006-06-07T01:28:00.000-07:00

03/06
went tampines for my once-a-wk exercise with mogu then after that i went to punggol park for bbq with 134 people.
hehehe.. as usual i had to take a photo lalla. taken for 5 times le? i tink so. lol.
before that had hans so didnt eat much there lo. more of taking photos and chatting with others. there are around 16 of us and i am learning to play a game called bridge. seems fun to me.. but i stil quite confused with the rules la. but i will get it clear de.. hopefully! opps!
took quite abit of photos but i haven receive yet so when i receive i will post them up de.

06/06
just finish studying global supply.. tiring week.
mon-study IM test
tues-IM test + study for Global Supply test
wed-Global Supply test + finish up of IB proj
thur-presentation of IB proj
fri-finally relax and go out with ee gongs
sat- exercise again

i am looking forward to my 2 wks hols now..
*seriously drained due to u

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Calling for 4E2 Babes!!

2006-05-29T01:00:00.000-07:00

Darlings.. i want a meet up!!
Fix a time.. tag me and say the time.
I want eat dinner.. dont care.
No excuse to say not free ar.. been so long since we last meet up liao.
I dont wana meet one or two people nia. i want my darlings ;p
Miss and love yas =)
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random entry

2006-05-29T00:20:00.000-07:00

rot at home for the past 2 days. . what a way to spend my weekends. but i am ok with it lala. replenish my energy (sleep sleep sleep). ahaha.

i like my life now.. love my friends who are always there for me.. love my family who wont betray me desert me no matter what.

but i stil wonder
sometimes. . .
why guys are just so weird? i am sick of guys now. seriously sick of them.

why must there be confusion?

just friends.. no. its not that easy.

dont tell girls that you are unworthy kaes.. its not up to you decide! even if girls appear like they dont care/need you.. deep dwn its a diff ans. so dont make any assumations for girls.

girls just want someone to care and love and dote on them. its as simple as that. it cant be measured in worthiness.. not at all!

i dont know how long i can _ _ _ _ but i know i am a stubborn girl.

after so many things..
now
i am tired.. exhausted.. drained out. i really want to rest.

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The One Day. . .

2006-05-27T02:30:00.000-07:00

26/05
meet up with gene, roger and ken for our once-a-wk gathering. we went to the one ktv becuz i wana hear ken sing kiss goodbye by wong lee hom. haahah. we have been talking abt going for k-box session for weeks liao and finally i can hear him sing. hehe.
the room is quite big cuz we took the medium room. enough for e 4 of us lala. the songs there are quite updated and the environment is cosy. most important.. the cust service there is excellent.
well.. the results is ok la. hehe. gene and roger know the best. lol.
i really have no sense no directions.. i cant even find the toilet. whaha. so sotong rite. when i came out and saw gene outside and guess what? we took photos! yeah yeah. i just love taking photos.. bleahh. ahaha.
after k, roger went to meet his friends and the 3 of us went to galilee becuz i wana eat waffle ice cream. hehe. *sheepish grin* but something happen and i shall not eleborate more.

view the photos ba.. so many diff poses. opps!

hahaha.. really diff poses rite? whohoho.
anyway.. i really wana thank gene, jia and daddy papa(u noe who u are ;p) for all your support. =) thanks for talking to me and always there to listen to whatever crap i have.

okok.. stop bring so emotional liao.
i go my lalala land le.. tml have to wake up early go JB shop! yipee!!

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I am a FAT FAT girlie ;p

2006-05-25T00:50:00.000-07:00

i am certified a fat woman!!!
hahah.. went to have sakae buffet with jia and med after class and the three of us ate 24 plates ba.. think so. never really go count also. but i must sae i like to see the plates stacking higher and higher. but at the same time indicate that i am getting fatter. gives me a sense of satisfaction.
actually wana go swim de gut due to laziness.. i abandon swimming and decide to go EAT. imagine what a pig i am kaes. how can i abandon exercise when i am fat? how can?
forget about it...wads done is done.
anyway after eating we went to walk around marina square and i bought a ring.. again! ok! i love buying rings, shoes, bags.. aiya.. whatever girls like to buy i will buy. hehe.
when we went to toilet.. the 3 of us stay inside for 1 hr. . do wad? Take Photos! of cuz..girls trait ma. hahah. we took tons of photos.. get it.. TONS of photos!!
but dont worry i wont post all de.. no space also. heheh.
while walking back to mrt station.. met gene n ken.. its been so long since i last met them (acutally we dint met for 1 wk nia). lol. too me is considered long lala. they went to buy gary wedding gift. haha. my share is included. yeahhh. ahhaah.

okok.. now i finish nagging.. here's the photos. . .

End of photos!
whehee.. still have alot of photos but cannot upload.. too many liao. haaha.

tired tired.. gonna go my sotong lallala land liao. nites nites. [tonkers off]

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Date with Pauline ;)

2006-05-24T00:50:00.000-07:00

went to meet pauline..for dinner. too hungry liao. hehe. just go somewher near our house and eat lala. tired to go other places.
hehe. borrow the personal selling tutorial from her cuz i have tutorial tml and i think have ans beside me is better ba. haha. i am a bad student.. i know i know. lol.

took photos again.. haha. so lets the view the photos kaes!

haha. end of photos viewing (are that such words *ponder*)

im glad that time didnt push us further from wach other.. we are still who we are when we first met 4+ yrs ago. =)

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HAPPY!!

2006-05-21T02:00:00.000-07:00

wahaha.. my blog is done! finally! everything is in place now.. all credits to dearr jia. she help me edit the template and stuff. without her i think i am die mans. haha. simply becuz i am a com idiot. thins kinda code thingy make my head spins only.
nw i hav tagboard liao.. so dont say why my blog stil dont have tagboard kaes.. lol. haha. and i have my fav mickey. muahha. i really love mickey but both my mickey watch spoil liao. =( i am really very clumsy.. no doubt la.

19/05
went to galilee and eat again (cuz i just went there yest with dar tong jue). hahha. this time went there with jia, min and winnie(jia's cousin). reached town and went to wisma to collect min phone den go there eat cuz we are hungry! when we are there.. its almost 6 ba. we stay there till 8++. lol. during that time, calvin came and meet us and e 5 of us played e uno stacko gamey and whoever loses 3 times will have to do forfeit. guess who lose? ME! ehehee. actually its not me de. but karma so become me. wahah. i ate ice cream with pepper and salt. tasted nice but the pepper made me choke lalaa. =p

its PHOTOS TIME!

normal effect. . colourful jia and ying =)

sepia effect.. BOOOBOOO!

frm left: ying jia winnie

our uno gamey.. going to fall!

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Undering revamp =)

2006-05-20T01:10:00.000-07:00

haha. my blog is under going some revamp now. therefore if you all read will be abit messy (ruan) and confusing la. hehe. sorry for the inconvenience but bear with it kaes. cuz i finally found my mickey blogskin le. so happy lo!! wahaaha.
hopefully everything will be ok after a few days.. asking min to help me do. i am really a computer idiot..with this kind of coding stuff.
ciaos *winks*

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Sentosa = Fun ;)

2006-05-18T00:40:00.000-07:00

went to sentosa right after class with the ee gongs minus hong & min. whooho.. we hav been talking abt going to sentosa for sooo long. finally our dream come true! whaha. so happy! we took alot alot alot of photos lo. and they turn out so nice la. hehe. there are a total of 65 photos in my phone alone.. without adding med camera. Gosh! we are a bunch of zi-lians ee gongs.. but dont care. whahaaaaaa.

now let the photos tell the rest ba . . .
enjoy
.
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...
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after so many trial and errors finally hav one nice one =)

cheeky us ;p

our faces dont look fat ba??? *pray*

our feets together forming a star.. yipee!

with ee gong da.. medeline

with ee gong er..jiajia

with ee gong san..shihui

with ee gong shi..lishi

ee gong wu..jieying (myself)

sitting on the sand resting *tired*

enjoy being strangled *yeah*

able to see us? yes or no? say the names out.. *winks*

guess thats the photos which are the best that i picked among all the photos. cant possbly upload all ba.. too many liao. haha. will upload again when med send me the photos in her camera (she has more and much nicer photos in her camera). lol.
so med you must be more efficient and upload the photos kaes.. chop chop! hehehe.
love the ee gongs. . .

dono y i wil stil miss u......

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K-Boxing Session...

2006-05-15T23:49:00.000-07:00

went to suntec k-box wit jia, med and min(ah bu). before that acc min go wisma sony ericssion service centre service her phone (K700i). have to wait awhile lala.
have fun singing there cuz the cust service is way better compared to cine.. of cuz! but there no shuai ge's lo. nvm.. that's nt the main point.
after singing.. ah bu wana go mit soon-to-be ah pa but ah pa so shy. in the end he stil come mit her at k-box and we get to see him lo. they left first.. go walk walk ma. *winks*
the three of us walk go buy yami yogurt (that's our dinner kaes). hahas. then we bought couple rings.. or should it be quartlet rings (cuz 4 of us wearing the same ring). so whoever lose it means divorced le. wahaha.
heheh. after that went to marina sq and i bought my leather hp accessory and a bra. when jia and i were on our way to city hall mrt station and pass by charles n keith.. i bought a pair of heels. i dont know why i like to buy shoes so much.. perhaps this is just me ba!! lol =)

everytime aeroplane us de... and pls stop scolding urself asshole. quite irritating. hehe. next time su jui can liao.. rem ar!!

love talking to u.. whehehe

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A "Nice" Encounter puke

2006-05-14T00:30:00.000-07:00

wow! just now went to meet vinnce n eat mac together. hahha. talking..gossiping.. as usual lalaaa.

but hor..on our way back home.. i went to coffee shop and buy teh-o bing becuz i wana poo ma. opps! hahah.

den.......

i saw a tranvestite.. yes! a tranvestite!

get it right.. i have no objection or grudges against them.. just that i will always take a second look at them. no why.

BUT.. after tonight i can conclude i DONT LIKE them liao.. those that are so 'good looking'..not! and pretend that they are! Gosh!

this trans that i saw rite.. is sooooooooo enormous.. tall and big in size kaes. okays give you all a description of 'her'. hehhe. 'she' is 1.7 tall with a meaty look + if you off the lights i can gurantee you wont be able to see her at all. (supplied ny vinnce)
i saw 'her' walking in to the coffee shop and tell vinnce that 'she' should be a trans ba. then when i am ordering my teh-o bing.. 'she' walked over and suddenly say out loud that 'she' know i am talking about 'her' saying 'she' is ah gua.. trans. i just keep 'her' a blank look and didnt even bother about her. 'she' continue to say: ' you think you are pretty izit? you are ugly!' OMG!
i admit i am not pretty..just average looking girl but you are UGLY! i dare to say that!
by saying that 'she' displays 'her' confidence out but please.. take a look in the mirror before saying the words out loud can. wah kao!
everything that shoot out of 'her' mouth only shows that 'she' think 'she' is pretty and i am ugly. lucky today my mood is sooo damm good (becuz i got my phonie) if not i think i will quarrel with her le ba. my tolerance level not very high de.
when my drink is ready.. i walked away with vinnce and that 'irritating woman' is still saying the pretty n ugly thingy. i just shout out whatever. its so damm de fan to hear 'her' saying the same words for like 5mins.
vinnce and i conclude that there is no trans that will look even uglier than 'her'.. 'she' is the 'prettiest woman' on the whole world! argh! eeeeeee! er xin da bian!
Goodness Gracious!
i think i will have nightmare tonight kaes.. when i close my eyes i will see 'her' big fat dark face and the way 'she' acts n speaks. wana puke liao!
should have taken her pic mans.. so everyone of you can see how 'nice' 'she' looks!

comments by those that heard about this 'pretty babe' *puke puke puke*:
-->ah yi: next time see 'her' tell 'her' that your boobs are real. (me: hahah.. but my boobs are smaller than her by so much. sadded.)
-->vinnce: seriously i think after a minor operation, she can never be female. sorry him. tell him dont waste time, go home and sleep. at least donate to charity, do some good deeds. (me: i agree totally. given your calibre.. you can never be a female so forget abt it la. will only attract unnecessary attention to yourself and cause people to lose their appetite sia. er xin da bian)
--> zhou kai: his fren has an encounter with trans also. that time his fren saw them and the trans ask him what he was looking at. (me: kaoz.. this kind of people should know by having that kind of ta ban will atrract attention still dare to say people for looking at them! diaos!)
-->jiewei: i saw 2 trans. they also think they are very pretty, those you make when you diao people. (me: trans always exihibit great confidence but they dontn like people to look at them. so whats the use of attracting attention. idiots!)
-->jia: tell him is none of his business whether i am ugly or not. (me: precisely la.. 'she' think 'she' is who ar.. bigshot izit. dare to comment about me)

okays.. basically that's all la.. if there are more comments i will add them in or those that wana add in.. just add comment can le.

phew! vent everything oout like a machine gun.. feeling better. *grins*

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MY PHONE IS BACK!!!

2006-05-13T19:05:00.000-07:00

woke up ard 930 and call PSA seee whether they are open so i can go take my phone. i am so glad when they are open kaes! haha. i really miss my phone so much.. that i am willing to wake up so early to take. u noe im a lazy bumm.. so cna imagine how much i miss my phonie yeah? =)
took train to commonwealth and i dono which bus will reach PSA but being stubborn as i am..i didnt ask anyone just look at the signs and went to bus-stop and wait for 100. call jia and she acc throut the bus journey but the bus dint stop outside PSA..it stop somewhere far from it! GOSH! i have to walk all the way there and it was drizzling. poor me rite?? hehhe. but everything is worth it when i got my phone back. all the data were intact so i dont need to upload back (from com to phone).. save me so much trouble.
was caught in the rain so i keep on waiting for the rain to stop but the rain didnt seem to get smaller either. no choice..ran out and took a cab to commonwealth station. in the train liao den jia told me tamp was raining cats n dogs also. hais. destined that we cant swim and shake off all the fats from our body! so went to walk ard at TM and Century Sq. bought one hp accessory for my hp pouch. haha. but jia bought alot of ling ling sui sui items lo. wahha.
help her paint her nails but she smudge it liao. fast ba.. aiyo! stil dare to say i lan hor.. someone also ma. at least i smduge it 2 hrs later.. yours is within an hr mans. lol. nvm i am a hao ren will help you xiu pu de.. mon mon kaes. haha.

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Piccas . . .

2006-05-11T00:49:00.000-07:00

All my lovies in my poly =)

All the colleagues & nice people which i miss alot

My friends in MTI that make IPP bearable *grins*

Spend my free time trying to combine all the pics and make it as appear as nice as possible but i think i failed ba. hehehe.
but i really miss my colleagues in MTI.. if i miss anyone out in the pic den sorry kaes. i dont mean it de just that i dont have your pic. send me yours and i cna edit again. hahaha.
gene, roger and ken are my lunching and all time entertainment buddies in MTI. because of them.. i dont find working life boring and mudane. hahaha. but i do treasure my study life now.. opps!
2+yrs has passed and the eegongs managed to stay close together despite everything.. nt easy but we have done it. you all have made my life in poly the most enjoyable memorable.. i cant imagine my life witout you all. love all of you! muacks!
Hope the people out there like the pics lalalalaaa ;o)

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Shoo.. sickness.. yucks!

2006-05-06T02:05:00.000-07:00

well.. i am still sick. think drag for 1 wk plus le ba.. haven recover yet. plainly becuz i continue to eat as per normal. didnt 'jie kou' at all. i just want to get well.. and enjoy my food. right now i cant seem to taste any food that i eat. seems bland to me. my sore throat getting worse.

pls.. sickness just stay away from me..

i dont like you to be with me!

05/05
end class earlier so went k-pool while med shop for her slippers becuz i stepped on hers and it spoilt. hehe. sorry dearie *innocent face* =)
after that met philip (foreign exchange student from france) and discussed our tutorial that was to be presented on tues. haha. never seen us so hardworking ba.. *grins* nyp hostel are quite cosy and have a homey feeling.. environment is so peaceful and its feel great living there. ehehe.
met up with gene, roger and ken after their work and went to have our dinner at pepper lunch. dont understand why so many people like to eat there? its like the queue was so soooo long but people just dont mind. taste the food but seems ok to me. hmm..maybe the fun part was that you got to cook the food yourself so you can put the different seasonings and mix it..to your own preference.
had our usual dosage of crapping and teasings.. after dinner went to coffee club and continue. being such a nice person as i am.. i took the train to raffles place with gene and took some photos at the platform.. before our train came. hhehe. i simply love hanging out with them. look forward to our gathering next friday. yipee!

PHOTOS TIMEE!

stupid gene.. with the calamari ring on his mouth! (shows that his mouth is big enough to hold the ring) ;p

one indian posing at the escalator! gosh!

mouth itchy.. wana bite *grind teeth*

seems like matrix.. or izit not?

gene hand.. is left or right hand?? *ponder*

going to swim with dearr tml.. hope can see shuai ge. hhee. just wana have fun and forget all troubles.

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My VS2... S-P-O-I-L!!

2006-05-03T23:55:00.000-07:00

my Vs2 is being warded now.. lying in hospital!!
I MISS MY VS2...
hopefully things can work out and i can get my phone back asap. *pray*
Come back soon kaes!!

a million thanks to jia, med and min for accompanying to Panasonic service center (at queenstown there but its so damm bloody far.. and we have to walk under the sorching sun.)
the 3 of them just accompany me there to 'ward' my phone without much grumles.. take note is without much grumbles. ehehe. opps!
took 147 to bugis but the three of us doesnt know where to alight lo.. haaha. in the end..we alight at little india which is so far from fortune center (our destination). whohoo.. we took cab lo..as usual la.
went to the 'bing kuan' and eat the fresh fruits shaving ice.. not bad. those that like to at ice can go try. its at bencoolen building. =)
after that med meet her friend so jia and i go walk walk and i did my nails..because we are so tired form walking lo and i always wana try so just do it. hehee. results not bad laa. but i dont understand why so many girls can sit there for so long.. aiyo! my whole body is aching lo when i sit there for like one hr. hehe.
no luck in my retail therapy ;(

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After IPP. . . =)

2006-04-30T03:10:00.000-07:00

finally IPP came to an end le.. going back to school to study n hit the books everyday liao.
have been going out since thurs and eat so much fattening food mans. really have to exercise to get rid of those fats!!! argh!

27/04
went to Galilee and eat with gene, roger, kiran, palvin and ken.. to celebrate IPP coming to an end. hehe. get to talk and crap so much and its soo enjoyable.. to me la. haha. played my fav uno game (shd be called that name) and its so challenging. i simply love to play that game!
guys who never went there should go there and try their food. the ambience there is cosy and can catch up with friends. must try their waffle muffle--> waffle with ice cream! ;0)
went to level 9 koolpix to take photos. haha. den went home after that.. was soo tired.

28/04
miss my colleagues there.. they are so nice to me!! gave me prezzies and treat me dim sum buffet. time really flies.. my 11 weeks of attachment just passed like that.
i will miss alot alot of people there.. miss their entertainment and company =)
went to visit neyton at ttsh with fazali.. he have wad tonsil illness (i am bad with medical terms). he cant talk loudly yet but now able to talk liao. he have a very cute dino lo.. look like him. i tink la. haha. i dont mind being warded if someone gonna give me that cute dino.. *hint* hehe. i want the biggest dino.. so nice to play with. haha. (fazli - see the photo below and the big credit attn to you? touched? lol. now everyone know is you who send me the photos liao..even though is my phone who took them. dots. haaha.)
after that went to eat steamboat with gene, roger and ken. hahas. eat while we talk and gossip people. heheh. mostly teasing abt ken la. his actions are so funny lo..at time. stil early when we finish so thinking of places to slack. think of so many places but cant really decide till we reach mrt station.
went to Gelare and have my fav waffle ice cream. yummy! *licky* develop a liking for waffle ice cream.. simply drool when i think of it!
went home and sleep after that.. down with so many illness. hais.

29/04
meet up with ee gongs dearies for dinner. but before that meet jia and go cine take her 'repaired' bag. go walk around since we still have time. once again didnt see any clothes that catches my eyes but more of bags and shoes. as usual. hahaa. but i manage to refrain from buying la. hee. went to bugis to meet them but they are late again.. AGAIN! always! aiyo! but nvm llaa.if they are not late den i wont be able to buy my perfume le. so is blessing in disguise :]
had our dinner at secret garden.. recommend by med. a very secluded place suitable for couple to go. ambience there is best.. food ma.. quite nice la but considered abit ex ba. ard 30+ for one meal. we actually spend 2+ hrs on our dinner.. start at 8 and finish everything ard 10+. wow! long ba? when you are there.. you will forget abt time n just get immersed deep in the conversations with friends.
tired now.. all the days of eating sinful food that i shdnt eat had worsen my illness. voice changed .. nose block..thorat hurts. what can be worse den that?
gonna zZz liao. gg out again tml.. hopefully get better but not much chances laaa.

now its photo time!!!!!!

dino cute ba? hehe *grins* --> BIG credit to fazli for sending me the photo!

all those nice colleagues that i got to know at MTI!!

from left: ken, eugene, me, roger

concentrating on my so called uno game.. haaha. shhh...dont disturb!

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What 'Friend' Are You?

2006-04-27T10:09:00.000-07:00

You've got a little bit of Monica going on!
Mon! You're the normal one, honey, in the best way possible. You're caring, you're responsible, you look to the future—what a gem. Wait a second, did you just start editing for grammar mistakes in the middle of reading your own compliments? Ok, so you like things, well, the way you like them. But even when you're smiling through clenched teeth, waiting for everyone else to get with the program, deep down, you're really still smiling. You're just waiting for that impatient moment to pass. When it comes right down to it, you are thoughtful, meticulous, and good at what you do. As for romance, you can be a little picky and want things to be just-so. We wouldn't expect anything less. And like the original Monica, if you can avoid rushing into things, you'll find the right match and all the happiness your sweet, finicky, heart deserves.
Which "Friend" Are You?

Do This If U Are As BORED As Me!!!!!!!

2006-04-25T10:25:00.000-07:00

have been doing nothing since i start work yest..supervisors have no work for me at all. if have is also those that can be done in an hour or two de. so now doing some tests to waste time. haha.
tata.. for those wu liao ren like me!! =)

You Are A Friendly Ex

You and your ex are just friends - great friends really.
(At least that's what you keep telling yourself!)
While civility is a good thing, make sure you're not secretly wanting more...

What Type of Ex Are You?

Your Candy Heart Says "Cutie Pie"

You always seem to have a hot date, even though you never try to meet anyone.
A total charmer, you have a natural appeal that keeps you in high demand.

Your ideal Valentine's Day date: multiple dates with multiple people

Your flirting style: 100% natural

What turns you off: serious relationship talks

Why you're hot: you're totally addicting

What Does Your Candy Heart Say?

You Are 50% Weird

Normal enough to know that you're weird...
But too damn weird to do anything about it!

How Weird Are You?

You Are 50% Boyish and 50% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch.
Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes.
You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them.
You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

You Were a Porcupine

You have created your own path in life, and you encourage others to do the same.
Even as life progresses, you always maintain a sense of wonder and innocence.

What Animal Were You In a Past Life?

B-O-R-E-D

2006-04-23T01:10:00.000-07:00

totally describe what i am feeling now!

been doing nothing.. nothing.. the whole day.

jus laze on the bed watching tv.. sleeping..eating

now cant sleep liao.

arghhhhhhhh!!

miss ee gongs dearies so much... cant wait to go back school and gossip for all we want!

i want NYP food!

miss lectures tutorials familiar faces!

BOOOOOOOBOOOOOOOOOOO ;p

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really miss u badly bt everything can only be kept inside my heart...locked up.

=o)

2006-04-21T10:40:00.000-07:00

Loyal and generous. --> True
Patriotic. --> Maybe? ----- i dont even know wads tt!
Competitive in everything. --> True (Pool @ MS?) ----- thnks. i realise that too! haha
Active in games and interactions. --> True
Impatient and hasty. --> False ----- actually im if nt i wont screwed up my r/s
Ambitious. --> Maybe?
Influential in organizations. --> TRUE! ----- WHY must you put in CAPS? ;p
Fun to be with. --> True ----- say u surely will miss my presence in MTI de. wahaha
Easy to talk to, though hard to understand. --> False
Thinks far with vision, yet complicated to know. --> Hmm... ----- hmmm..cont la. toothead! hehe
Easily influenced by kindness. --> I jump, you jump. You jump, I siam ----- nono! i jump u also must jump. tt's the rule. lol
Polite and soft-spoken --> True ----- i tink u r the first to say im softspoken ba! no one ever say tt. *sob*
Having lots of ideas. --> True
Sensitive. --> Maybe? ----- im sensitive to. . . i also dono la. hee
Active mind. --> True
Hesitating, tends to delay. --> False
Choosy and always wants the best. --> False
Temperamental. --> Not a victim yet. ----- dont ever think of trying to be a victim. u wil regret de. haha
Funny and humorous. --> True
Loves to joke. --> True
Good debating skills --> True
Has that someone always on his/her mind. --> True
Talkative. --> True ----- everyone will agree with you.. rite.. my dearies n darlings out there?
Daydreamer. --> Maybe ----- i wish i am but i think to a certain extent i am lalalaa
Friendly. --> True
Knows how to make friends. --> True
Abiding. --> True
Able to show character -->True
one guy/girl kind of person. --> True
Loveable. --> True ----- thnks for agreeing with me. i know i am loveable. hehe. bhb
Easily hurt. --> Let me toss you and I'll give you the ans. ----- you dare to toss me.. den dont forget what you scared the most!!! *tickle*
Prone to getting colds. --> True
Loves music. --> True
Pretty/handsome. --> True ----- thnks once again =) *bows*
Loves to dress up. --> True
Easily bored. --> True ----- haha. always go over disturb you of cuz easily bored lo...
Fussy --> False
Seldom shows emotions. --> Emotions as in.. Postive or negative? ----- cant you say both.. + & -? aiyo! hee
Takes time to recover when hurt. --> Let me stab you with a knife and I will give u the ans ----- you stab me? or i stab you first? let u choose but think before you ans hor. *evil grin*

this is found in my prev entry comment. hahas. wondering who is the one who commented and i realise is YOU! hehe. found out by your nick--> where's my watch. haha. clever?

IPP left with 5 days and i am out of MTI.. going back to school with my ee gongs and seeing familiar faces again. excited to go back to school but will miss all the people here (except for some la). they are nice and caring towards me. especially my supervisors.

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got my ans.. after such a long period of aimlessly waiting. thnks. but i believe i wil stick to my decision made in the first place..prev entries.

Personality? True?

2006-04-18T16:22:00.000-07:00

This straight-up means ur the most good-looking person possible...better than all of these other months!
Loyal and generous.
Patriotic.
Competitive in everything.
Active in games and interactions.
Impatient and hasty.
Ambitious.
Influential in organizations.
Fun to be with.
Easy to talk to, though hard to understand.
Thinks far with vision, yet complicated to know.
Easily influenced by kindness.
Polite and soft-spoken.
Having lots of ideas.
Sensitive.
Active mind.
Hesitating, tends to delay.
Choosy and always wants the best.
Temperamental.
Funny and humorous.
Loves to joke.
Good debating skills.
Has that someone always on his/her mind.
Talkative.
Daydreamer.
Friendly.
Knows how to make friends.
Abiding.
Able to show character.
one guy/girl kind of person.
Loveable.
Easily hurt.
Prone to getting colds.
Loves music.
Pretty/handsome.
Loves to dress up.
Easily bored.
Fussy.
Seldom shows emotions.
Takes time to recover when hurt.

this is my personality given according to my month..
anyone can tell me whether izit true about me or not? =)

WHYs WHys Whys whys...

2006-04-17T15:05:00.000-07:00

Why there are guys that can understand their girl angry moments. .
Why they can just forgive their girl and continue with their relationship. .
Why they dont seem to take it to heart that their girl say things in a moment of anger. .
Why they are willing to continue the relationship after everything happen. .
Why they wont choose to take their girl 'angry moments' words to heart and take it seriously. .
Why they are willing to take the pain and sacrifice for the sake of continuing this relationship. .

so many whys inside my head and the only person who can give me the answer is U.
why others guys are willing to undertake all the pain involved but you cant?? perhaps this is you ba.. your character.
i know there is no turning back in your decision and i will respect that. you can do whatever you want but i also have the right to do so. since you choose to walk away without a clear explanation then i just have to stand on the same spot.

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Pissed but Enjoyable

2006-04-16T01:06:00.000-07:00

went to cine and sing k in the afternoon with med n jia but the service there is really very bad! wad i mean is really very very extremely kaes!
other k-box location is alright but cine k-box cust service is like s-h-i-t. if you dont wish to serve people den dont ever be in the service line. chase the customers away only when their time is up and not 30mins before that.

*whooish.. let out everything...*

now talk about some happy matters. =)

went to buy my fav smoothie at my fav place.. must drink at least once a wk den i will feel man zu. yum yum. hehe.
after that went to far east and shop becuz med n jia wana buy jeans. i feel like buying shoes again lo.haha. when i say this.. i know many people wana scold me again. hahaa. know why? cuz i bought 3 pairs of shoes in 9 days! retail therapy for me cuz my mood is so down recently.
never thought that i will buy any clothes but in the end i bought a top n bottom lo. aiyo. waste money again. at the rate i am going i think my allowance will delepte in no time mans. :p

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saw u n managed to bring myself to face u directly n even talk to u. nv tot i can do tt bt i managed to do it. thnks for ur treat..its unexpected bt dont treat me so nice. its very cruel to me. im really regretful for what i did bt i nv had e chance to prove to u i wil nv do tt again n wil be a better gf den before. if u hope tt by doing tt to me, i wil move on den sorry. i wil stil stand on the same location.. jus stand there waiting patiently. been 13 dayssince we last sms.. but its been 16 days since we last talked. . . hai

The Keys to MY Heart??

2006-04-13T12:20:00.000-07:00

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart.

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage pessimistically. You don't think happy marriages exist anymore.

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

can go try it out see what your heart is thinking and see whether its true.. in ur case =) good luck

true to a certain extent la..

yesh i wont cheat on my bf no matter wad happen and i dont think happy marriages exist anymore.

i will really do anything just for him to turn back now but i wont step into another r/s anymore.. not so easily. being hurt twice is really enough.. too much for me to bear le.

really miss u badly. . . hai

been 10 days. . . .

2006-04-12T16:40:00.000-07:00

how long will it take?

1 month.. 2 months.. 3 months..

no matter how long it takes , i will still be standing on the same spot

..waiting...for you to turn around and embrace me once more.

and i really really will treasure you. . . . . .

Timetable is out!!

2006-04-10T16:47:00.000-07:00

i love tis sem timetable.. hahas. its so slacked lo. monday blues so monday i dont need to go school. lol. wahah. my latest class ends at 7pm which is just nice for my dinner. hhehe. i can go shopping on wed becuz my class ends at 12pm. whohoo! lallaa. i can go swim on either thurs or fri. must exericse if nt so fat liao. hahah.
i have already plan out what i can do after class.. make full use of time. hehe. bullshit only!

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miss him real bad now.. been 8 days since he say he need to cool down. hais. can anyone lead me to the light of truth? even though i appear not to care so much but deep down i really care the fact that he is ignoring me like nobody's business. gg crazy soon le la. . . . . . . .

HAPPY BDAE MED!!

2006-04-09T00:06:00.000-07:00

due to our da jie birthday, the ee gongs had a chance to meet for the celebration cum gathering cum bitching session. ahaha. met at bugis and almost everyone was late lo. dots. haha. only jia, lishi and i were there early and hong was on time..as usual. hehe.
went to Terra, cafe opposite adidas, for our dinner and start on our gossipping n updating session after ordering our dinner. its the 3rd time during this ipp that all of us meet up. cant believe it! in the past we will see each other everyday. haha.
wana go take neo-prints but the shop close liao so we use digital cam and stand outside urban co to take photos. weird? ahah. but all of us just happen to stand outside there ma.. haha. really had fun with all the ee gongs =)

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wad i really need is you.. wad i really miss is you.. onli you you you

Pics of the day

2006-04-07T00:30:00.000-07:00

pics that were taken especially f0r Heather, my supervisor, who is leaving MTI. will miss her tremendously.. a nice supervisor! hope all her future endeavors will go smoothly. haha.
the pics are funny rite? i like my red hair so much.. hahas. siao cha bor ma. haha.

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miss u badly but i think i know whats ur decision will be. i will try my best to respect that and just wish that u are well kaes. pls dont avoid me anymore. if u really dont want me to stick to u, i promise i wont. i will still wait and the ring will stay on my finger.. quietly waiting. . . . . .

Sticking to What I Want. . .

2006-04-04T16:21:00.000-07:00

have been busy with the event these 2 days.. at least can get my mind off some other stuff.
the event is soo successful today and there are lots of yum yum food. . *drool* i did manage to eat quite alot of food. at least i dont vomit out what i have eaten.

i have been vomiting out the food that i have eaten from fri nite to sun nite. dont have any appetite to eat or fill my stomach with any food even though im having gastric pain.. juat hate the sight of food. make me wana puke.
but now is better le.. i will have to stop torturing myself. im the one who suffer.. no one elses will know and care for me anymore.
has been 4 days since we talked. . really miss him alot alot. i really hate the way things are but what to do. i can only blame myself for everything that happen. i am the one who destroy everything. no matter what i say wont help to mend anything. its all my fault. but my feelings are true. sometimes i really dont understand why i can be so implusive. do things that never go through my brain.
i really just want you back. . nothing more. i know i have hurt you by sending that msg but it doesnt indicate breakup. serious. i dont mean it in that way. i was very pissed that nite. you know temper de.. if i am very pissed , i wont use my brain and think. will just type and send whatever comes to my mind but i will regret later. i also dont know why i am always like that. act without going through my brain. really hate my implusiveness now!
i know you can cope very well without me.. but you also know that i need you. but i know you wont want me back..even if you cool down le rite.
no matter you will call me or msg me.. i wont give up. you should know my character. i like means like.. dont like means dont like. the ring will stil stay on my finger..i wont take it off. to me.. you are still my dear..the one i care and love alot. but to you. . . . . . .

All my fault....

2006-04-01T01:45:00.000-08:00

why did it turn worse?
my impulsiveness is killing me and causing harm to me. i hate that! hate it so much!
i dont want quarrels with him anymore.. i just want him to be happy. but i cant seem to do so for him. he dont flare up and get angry easily but once he is angry.. tt's it. i wil be in deep shit trouble. i think im already in very very very very big trouble now.
he needs time n space to think.. then i am the one giving him that. by doing so.. i think i can become panda in a few days. if his answers are positive.. becoming panda is ok. but what i worried so much is that the answer is negative. i hate this feeling!
even thought the time spent together is not long or not enough but his presence in my life means so much to me. i dont want him to walk out and leave me standing there again.
why must i be so implusive and do things that i will regret afterwards?
i cant blame anyone but myself.

right now i just want him to turn back and embrace me again. . . i really long for his hugs alot.. since the last time i met him til now. but i miss him especially more NOW.. really wana kill myself for being so implusive. *bang wall* =_( what can i do to redeem all this. . . *sob sob*

pperhapps. . .

2006-04-01T00:18:00.000-08:00

mood of the day: lifeless = no mood = 1000000000.......% down

slack almost the whole day.. do not have much tasks to do again. think my eyes are like tap lo. open will flow out so easily de. must train myself to be tougher and more independent.
who wana teach me?
i am at a loss.. blabbering rubbish now!

dear are u having cold war with me? why are you doing this?
do you stil love me? i really have so many qns inside my mind. . .
i just want some confirmation and security only.
i have no intention of throwing temper n other stuff. . .

???WHYs???

2006-03-30T23:20:00.000-08:00

why the things that i think is important doesnt apply so to him?
why at times he is soo nice and caring but at times he is not?
why i must think in his shoes always?
why he cant think in mine just for once?
why maintaining a relationship is sooo difficult?
why understanding each other is so hard?
why sometimes i think that he dont care but others dont think so?
why is he so hard to fathom?
why i cant seem to catch up with his thinking?
why i still grumble even though i know and understand his busy schedule?
why i cant stop myself from being impulsive and say things that never go through my brain?
why do i feel so sad and disappointed when he dont have the time to listen to what i want to say becuz he was busy?
why i miss him and want to talk to him but he just wont have the time to listen?
why he rarely say things that girls like to hear?
why i am soo xin ku inside but i just dont wish to tell him?
why is loving someone so difficult?
why do we have to fall in love?
why do we love even though we know is hurting and hard?
why he dont seem to give a damm about me when i really miss him alot alot but didnt get the chance to tell him?
why is he so 'wood' sometimes?
why even though he is so 'wood', i still love him so much?
why i rather bear and keep everything inside me instead of telling him?
why so many people ask me to think in his shoes but no one think in mine?
why sometimes i get the feeling that he think for himself only?
why are people selfish at times?
why do people think so much?
why he can just say i am tired and ignore me like that?
why i feel like shouting out loud, hitting people, biting people but i dont have the energy to do so?
why i feeel like banging my head on the wall?
why i am always the one who think more in depth than him?
why am i more emotional than him?
why i will cry when i nearly lose him?
why cant he just be sweet for this time?
why i will feel that he is oblivious to my presence at times?
why my mood will get so down when he talks in such a bo chap tone?

why why why?
why why why?

i really wish feel to find out all the WHYS.

but i guess it all binds down to the fact that
izzit he is too insensitive or izzit i am the one who cares too much and being tooo sensitive?
think mostly is my part ba..just think on the bright side than mayb wont feel so xin ku inside le. but its sosoooooooooo h-a-r-d. . . .i just care too much that my mood is sooo damm the down now. sososoo sadded =(

Craving for . . . . . .

2006-03-27T10:15:00.000-08:00

Have a strong craving for YAMI YOUGURT!!

Yummy!

Not Fattenning

AND

At The Same Time Feels Full..

--> miss dear.. but have to wait till sunday before i can meet him again. what to do..

Another time spent with uUu. . .

2006-03-26T01:35:00.000-08:00

meet dearr jia ard 5 to go town and shopp. but think both of us are too tired to look around.. didnt saw anything that fancy us and walked around aimlessly. hahas. went to suntec just for the yami yogurt that both of us wana eat. hehee. abit toot la.. but what to do.. we liked the yogurt! yum yum!
after that meet dear.. his friend's bday so acc him to go meet them at partyworld chinatown. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU! haha. his friends are interesting and funny people. at first seem awkward with them but after an hour or so..will warm up and talk. hhaha. his friends have good voices and can sing very well. ehee. i ate cake at midnight lo..so fattenning but the cake is so nice la.. so worth it. at the most climb stairs few more times lo. ;p
dear send me go take cab..didnt send me home. have to learn to take things in stride and think in others shoes. cannot always be so demanding. luckily take cab if not i dun wana go home alone lo. haha. really treasure the times spent with him.. becuz i dont always get to spend time with him.

SoooOoo muchh funNn

2006-03-25T01:44:00.000-08:00

after work took a cab with ken, eugene and roger to harbour front for MTI Getaway Cruise. the name of the cruise is Falcon Princess. haha. weird name . .
the sea was choppy and thus making the ship rocks.. cant stand properly. the ship just went ard and shop at Kusu island for quite awhile..more stable there. we had buffet dinner, lucky draws and games.
afterall games was the most enjoyable and fun. . hahas. imagine you get to see scenes that maybe you cant get to see in your whole life. heheh. so when i had to participate in one of the game that need us to pretend we are in a rock band and wear those weird weird clothes n accessories. i just heck care and played.. haha. forget who i am. just enjoyed. anyway i wont get to see them again..after my ipp. manage to pull my score up to the 2nd place and got a hamper. haha.
i dont mind working at MTI after i graduate. the people there are so fun and easy-going. especially my supervisor, heather tan..wendy goh..gary kaw. there are really great people! haha. always encourage me and wont suan me or whatsoever. hehe. love them.
went to cine..my fav hangout place and eat some food. didnt eat much on board. more of talking and playing to enjoy the food. hhaa. saw dear there working. can see he is so tired but have to hang in there. heartpain. but no choice..that's his work ma. at least can get to see him is already very good le. dont expect much from him also. i wont grumble to him and add on to his burdens. i will only grumble to my frens so they have to suffer le. hehe. i dont want him to feel stress with me and think that i am so unreasonable.

Are You Fit to Commit? quiz again. .

2006-03-24T10:34:00.000-08:00

Jie, you're fit to commit because you know what you want
You don't need us to tell you that you're on the right track. A cool and confident person, you know what you want; now it's just a matter of finding it. Even more important, you know that love is about much more than what kind of clothes they wear or car they drive. And you're ready to make it work.You've gotten to a place where you are happy with your life, and you're ready to share it with someone special. So whether you've found them or are still looking, know that this time, you'll get what you want.

http://web.tickle.com/tests/fittocommitnew/?test=fittocommitnewogt

i am seriously bored in the office so keep doing quizzes and post them online. . haha. so for those that are as bored as i am. just go do and waste some time. *wink*

Shopping Spree? NoNo!

2006-03-24T09:44:00.000-08:00

went to bugis with dearr yest.. i was late cuz i keep thinking i will be meeting her at city hall. haha. blurr me.
both of us dont feel like eating so she bought 2 crispy pancakes and i bought a cup of corn for dinner. hahaas. dont think we are jian fei-ing kaes..becuz they are considered oily stuff also. ;p
walk around bugis but nothing caught our eyes.. dont why. nowadays shuai ge dont know hide where le. like all ren jian zhen fa le. haha. abit sians la..since no shuai ge to see. opps!
went to parco and dearr was like siao char bo.. crazy woman. next time bring her out must be careful ar. lol. took neoprints with her and i like that machine alot. cuz all the pics look so nice. haha. in the end both of us bought a pouch each and nothing more le. hehe.first time! nvm..we will cont on sat..in town. wahaha.

which one do u like the most? leave a comment . . =)

What Kind of Girlfriend Are You? quiz. .

2006-03-24T09:30:00.000-08:00

Jie, you're a Steady Supporter
Stand by your man — that's just something you naturally do. Once you've committed to a relationship, you are a constant companion who enjoys the comfort and stability that comes from being a couple. Not quick to judge, accuse, or think the worst, you have a lot of trust (in him and in yourself), and you rarely worry about where he is or who he's with.For you, mutual respect is of utmost importance. You are comfortable and confident in your own skin, making you a great pillar of strength in all your relationships. Whether he's striving to climb a mountain or land a promotion, you have his back. Best part is, you know he's got yours too.

http://web.tickle.com/tests/girlfriend/?test=girlfriendogt

the quiz is true to some extent ba..
i will accuse my bf without thinking through my brain and regret what i say later on. perhaps that's me ba.. hehe.
pillar of strength? i am not too sure. haha. must ask him next time le. :)

^no matter how unhappy i am.. i also wont say it out or grumble to u le. i know u need to work and need ur rest but sometimes i also need ur attention. but i will try to tell myself to understand and think in ur shoes. i dont want you to think that i am unhappy with u and make a decision i dont want to accept again. so i rather keep quiet and say nothing. . .^

Sick...soOo sickening

2006-03-22T23:10:00.000-08:00

sick for 2 days le.. hate to be sick. whole body no energy and had to eat medicine. i hate eating medicine.. bitter and most importantly is pills! yucks!

but i had a good time with dear yest. hheehe. love spending quality time with him and having him by my side. through what happen. . i have learnt to treasure him more and more le. haha. wont do things that he doesnt like and would cause him to be unhappy.
-->i will kick away that stupid habit of mine if not i will lose you.. i know that. i wont let you encounter the problem the 2nd time liao. i really hope everything will turn out well and we wont be squabbling so much becuz of the unnecessary stuff kaes. dont always think that you dont have time for me. as long as you have time for me is enuff le. thnks for being so doting and caring towards me. love you lots.
*thnks to dearr for accompanying me with your smses.. and your comforting words that helped me so much. you are really my love consultant. =) muacks

had been sleeping the whole day today.. no energy to get out of bed and whole body was so hot. dear had to work so no time to accompany me but he show his concern through smses. as long as i can feel his concern..i am contented le. hehe. talk online awhile before i feeel sleepy again. haha. pig rite.. but no choice. i was so tired.. from work and stuff. till now my voice hadnt change back yet and i am still having my flu. sadd sadd

5 weeks to go go go!!

2006-03-20T14:40:00.000-08:00

20/03
sitting at my desk infront of the com blogging. whole day no mood.. just keep sneezing and coughing. throat so pain. . mayb becuz i ate kfc for lunch. haha. surely want to scold me for eating kfc even though i am sick rite? i had the urge to eat cheese fries ma..so ask med n justice bao to eat kfc lo. hhaha.
now feeling so lethargic..feel like cutting my nose off. so itchy. keep sneezing. arghhhhhhhhhh!!!!!

19/03
met up with jac and tong. met jac ard 4.40pm at amk station becuz i was damm tired. went to walk ard at heeren and i bought a necklace and bracelet. haha. fast?
after that went to our fav hangout place and had dinner there. dont know why dont feel like seeing him all of a sudden and was feeling moody. but after awhile i am alright le.
tong went to settle some stuff after dinner while jac and i went to amk and play pool. last week just played with dear so skills still there la..abit of it. jac didnt perform her standards..becuz she didnt play for soo long le.

18/03
had dinner at marina square pizza hut with dearies ee gong clan. have been so long since we last met up. the whole bunch of us were talking and laughing so loudly that other people keep looking at us. hahas. its really fun hanging out together.
caught dorm with dearr and hong. overall the movie is NOT a horror movie but more of a touching movie. its not those scary movie where the ghost suddenly pop out and scare people.
so for those who wana watch this movie but dont dare... you can go and catch it becuz the storylines are pretty good =)

My Life Quiz

2006-03-14T17:50:00.000-08:00

This Is My Life, Rated
Life:	6.5
Mind:	6.4
Body:	7.5
Spirit:	5.2
Friends/Family:	4.7
Love:	6.9
Finance:	5.5
Take the Rate My Life Quiz

Your Life Analysis:
Life: Your life rating is a score of the sum total of your life, and accounts for how satisfied, successful, balanced, capable, valuable, and happy you are. The quiz attempts to put a number on the summation of all of these things, based on your answers. Your life score leaves room for improvement. You can make changes to improve your trouble areas, and this will bring you greater satisfaction. Focus on your weakest points and set about to change them. Do not delay your happiness and success. (Read more on improving your life)

Mind: Your mind rating is a score of your mind's clarity, ability, and health. Higher scores indicate an advancement in knowledge, clear and capable thinking, high mental health, and pure thought free of interference. Your mind score is not bad, but could be improved upon. Your mental health is not weak, but you are not achieving full mental clarity and function. Learn how to unclutter your mind. Keep learning, keep improving, continue moving forward. Read advice from other quiz-takers on improving the mind.

Body: Your body rating measures your body's health, fitness, and general wellness. A healthy body contributes to a happy life, however many of us are lacking in this area. You have a rather good body score, which is an indication that you take care of yourself. There is room for improvement, however. Please keep doing what works. Eat right, exercise, reduce your stress, treat any illness. Doing these things will help ensure your body will be in good working order for a long time to come. Read advice from other quiz-takers on improving the body.

Spirit: Your spirit rating seeks to capture in a number that elusive quality which is found in your faith, your attitude, and your philosophy on life. A higher score indicates a greater sense of inner peace and balance. Your spirit score leaves room for improvement. Consider making a concerted effort to redefine your attitudes and focus your beliefs. Boosting your spirit will lead to greater life satisfaction. Read advice from other quiz-takers on improving the spirit.

Friends/Family: Your friends and family rating measures your relationships with those around you, and is based on how large, healthy, and dependable your social network is. Your friends and family score suffers, yet it does not need to be this way. Strengthen your social network by reaffirming old bonds. Seek out new friendships, and they will provide you the reward you need. Try using MeetUp.com to find people near you who share your interests.

Love: Your love rating is a measure of your current romantic situation. Sharing your heart with another person is one of life's most glorious, terrifying, rewarding experiences. Your love score is in good shape, meaning that things are going well. Do all you can to maintain it, and continue to grow and move ahead. Read advice from other quiz-takers on finding and maintaining love.

Finance: Your finance rating is a score that rates your current financial health and stability. Your finances are somewhat in the middle, neither bad or exceptional. Keep doing what works for you, and improve what doesn't. Focus on long-term financial stability as your goal. Read advice from other quiz-takers on improving your finances.

Know Your STRENGTHS & WEAKNESS!

2006-03-14T12:31:00.000-08:00

Dating Strengths	Dating Weaknesses
1. Friendliness - 75% 2. Financial Situation - 69.2% 3. Open-Mindedness - 63.6% 4. Flirtiness - 62.5% 5. Optimism - 57.1%	1. Selfishness - 63.6% 2. Vanity - 50%

Dating Strengths Explained
Friendliness - Your friendliness makes you approachable and fun to be around. A wide circle of friends also works to your advantage on the dating scene. Financial Situation - You've got your financial situation under control, which is a very desirable quality. Be careful to avoid guys who are only interested in your money. Open-Mindedness - You are open to trying new things and entertaining new ideas, and this widens your pool of available guys. Flirtiness - Flirting is a good way to break the ice, and you are a pro at it. Being flirtatious will open up many dating opportunities. Optimism - People are drawn to your positive outlook. Your optimism attracts others to you.
Dating Weaknesses Explained
Selfishness - You think too much of yourself and your needs. You must learn to put your partner first and tend to his needs. Vanity - Learn to put a lower priority on looks. Appearance is, of course, important, but vanity is undesireable. The only people you will attract are the superficial.
Take the Dating Diversions Latest Online Dating Quiz

http://www.datingdiversions.com/dating_sw_quiz.html

The Seven Deadly Sins Quiz

2006-03-14T12:20:00.000-08:00

Greed:	Medium
Gluttony:	Medium
Wrath:	Medium
Sloth:	Medium
Envy:	Medium
Lust:	Low
Pride:	Medium

Take the Seven Deadly Sins Quiz

WhOoooO..wEeKENd GoNe!

2006-03-13T16:29:00.000-08:00

Ipp is left with 6 weeks.. hope time passes fast.
frankly speaking.. my supervisor is very nice to me. i dont feel like leaving this co but doing the same task over and over again is also boring and i miss my dearies soo much. well.. tian xia mei you bu san de yan xi. ;]

10/03
mit dearr after work to catch Date Movie. haha. the show was hilarious (abit over-dramatic) but the duration is abit too short. its a nice show to watch after work. can relax and de-stress. hehe. you will keep laughing from the start to the end. haha. we had our dinner at yoshinoya before the start of the movie. 2 person sitting at a table for 4-6 pax. so idiot lo. hahaaha. all becuz of someone thinking! lol. hehee.
after movie.. i was hungry and we went to galilee to eat .hahaa.eat such sinful food at such late hours but i dont care. i was damm de hungry kaes! oks..i admit is to go see dear and my stupid mouth is itchy for food!! aiyo! make me say out the truth. lol. dearr so nice..pei me eat till 11 plus den we go home. haha.

11/03
dearr and i decide to go marina square and suntec instead of parkway parade which is so far from my house and hers. haha.
but. . .
going marina square and suntec is a wrong decision made by us!
marina square is so packed with people.. due to the opening of Creative shop and the publicity. saw celebs there and i has no mood to shop. see so many people..my mind is not moving. just feel like closing my eyes. haha. but i managed to buy a top. hehe.
suntec is also cramped with people.. becuz of the IT Fair held there. nothing much to shop at suntec and i need to rush off to meet my cousin for dinner at my gran place le.
its been a long time since i went my gran place and eat so went back to eat and she is soo happy. haha. i am happy too. hehe. i miss her cooking. suppose to meet dear for movie after my dinner but he was sick so i went to watch with my cousin only. reached home around 2+ am. had girls talk with my cousin. slept at 4+ am. *grins*

2006-03-08T17:31:00.000-08:00

Your Career Type: Social

You are helpful, friendly, and trustworthy.
Your talents lie in teaching, nursing, giving information, and solving social problems.

You would make an excellent:

Counselor - Dental Hygienist - Librarian
Nurse - Parole Officer - Personal Trainer
Physical Therapist - Social Worker - Teacher

The worst career options for your are realistic careers, like truck driver or farmer.

What's Your Ideal Career?

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?, The Five Variable Love Test, The Three Dimension Luck and Power Test, What Age Do You Act?,

2006-03-08T17:08:00.000-08:00

***The Keys to Your Heart***
You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart.
In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.
You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.
Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love.
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.
You think of marriage pessimistically. You don't think happy marriages exist anymore.
In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.
http://www.blogthings.com/keystoyourheartquiz/

***Your Five Variable Love Profile***
Propensity for Monogamy:
Your propensity for monogamy is medium.In general, you prefer to have only one love interest.But it's hard for you to stay devoted for too long!There's too much eye candy to keep you from wandering.
Experience Level:
Your experience level is high.You've loved, lost, and loved again.You have had a wide range of love experiences.And when the real thing comes along, you know it!
Dominance:
Your dominance is medium.You tend to be the one with more power.You aren't a total control freak in relationships..But of course you don't mind getting you way!
Cynicism:
Your cynicism is low.You are an eternal optimist when it comes to love and romance.No matter how many times you've been hurt - you're never bitter.You believe in one true love, your perfect soulmate.And if you haven't found true love yet, you know you will soon.
Independence:
Your independence is high.You don't need to be in love, and sometimes you don't even want love.Having your own life is very important for you...Even more important than having a relationship.
http://www.blogthings.com/thefivevariablelovetest/

***You Are Internal - Believer - Powerful***
You feel your life is controlled internally.If you want something, you make it happen.You don't wait around for things to go your way.You value your independence and don't like others to have control.
You are a true believer in luck, fate, and karma.You believe that life is a game of chance - not a game of skill.You either consider yourself very unlucky or very lucky.No matter what, you don't feel like you can change the hand you were dealt.
When it comes to who's in charge, it's you.Life is a kingdom, and you're the grand ruler.You don't care much about what others think.But they better care what you think!
http://www.blogthings.com/thethreedimensionluckandpowertest/

***You Are 24 Years Old***
Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.
13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.
20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.
30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!
40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.
http://www.blogthings.com/whatagequiz/

What Kind of Kisser Are You?

2006-03-08T16:09:00.000-08:00

***You're an Passionate Kisser***
For you, kissing is about all about following your urgesIf someone's hot, you'll go in for the kiss - end of storyYou can keep any relationship hot with your steamy kissesA total spark plug - your kisses are bound to get you in trouble

http://www.blogthings.com/whatkindofkisserareyouquiz/

--> so bored so decide to this quiz linked from ker's blog. hhaha. TRY it out and see the results. might be in for a SHOCK! ;p

seriously no mood!

2006-03-07T15:40:00.000-08:00

in the office now trying to create motd for E.D but i have no mood for any work.
just exactly what does my heart wants? i also have no answer for that. . i am so frustratedd. feel like opening it up and ask what do you want ? dont torture me anymore! arghhhh

nothing much to update this few days or even 1 week. life is so mundane..work, go out, go home. same routine over n over again for 11 weeks. meeting my dear, ee gong clan and my darlings are what i look forward the most every week. they are my source of motivation in work n every aspect. love you all to the tiniest bits!! ^muacks^

To WHO It May Concern

2006-03-03T17:30:00.000-08:00

Well..
if you think that i have done all this to make you hate me then sad to say, YOU are wrong!
i have said all that is becuz i want to get my message across CLEARLY and really do what friends do..nothing beyond that.
btw, getting your no from you doesnt mean i start the ball rolling. i hav made it very straight to you that we are not possible to get together. i told you in sms, on phone. but you doesnt seem to get it in your head.
i dont care whether you said to others that i am leading you on or what so ever. i know in my heart that i am not can le. all i have to do is to able to answer to my friends and most importantly..myself.
last but not least, if you really choose to hate me, then its your choice, your decision. i have absolutely no say in it.
anyway now i realise that its very very true when people always says actions speaks louder than words!

3rd weekk downn...8 more to GO!

2006-03-03T14:45:00.000-08:00

01/03
meet up with darling tong for dinner and shop for my bag. hee. i was late but luckily she have jeanie to accompany her and so she wont be so bored. haha. if not i will get blast liao. thnks jeanie :)
we send jeanie to scotts food court then we walked to far east. saw a bag i liked there and was pondering whether should i buy or not. we decided to walk around first becuz i dont wana buy the bag then saw another that i liked. must kick the habit of being so spendthrift so cannot see, like then buy. mitsju is having a sale! 10%-50%. so tempting. tong bought a pair of shoes there.. i also wana buy but too bad. no money le. hehe.
settle our dinner at far east.. its only now then i know that there are nice food at far eat and its affordable too. hahaha. acutally dont wana eat dinner de but since i have promise HIM so no choice have to eat. dont wana make HIM worry also. so good hor? lol.
i went back to get my bag and we went to cine level 9 to take pics but the results wasnt satisfying so tong wana go heeren and take again. by the time we finish taking pics, its almost 10pm. headed home cuz i was tired. didnt meet HIM..he went to a concert with his boss. must let him have time with his friends also.
its a lesson that i learnt..a very valuable lesson.

03/03
now in the office doing nothing so blog lo. haha. really nothing for me to do le. have been slacking from morning till now. feel like sleeping..everyday must go through this period becuz i just had my lunch.
bought alot of fruits into the office. purpose is to keep myself awake for the remaining 4 hrs left. haha. didnt buy sweets becuz they contain sugar and its Fattening! ahhaha. so buy fruits instead..can help in digestion ma. good for the stomach. hehe.
looking forward to meet dear later.. guess going out after work will always brighten up my day! *grins*

=)

2006-03-01T16:37:00.000-08:00

27/02
had gastric flu and went to see a doctor. think i have eaten too much oily food during the weekend and got myself into this. next time cannot be so greedy le. had 1 day mc from the doctor and rest more. most important is that i cant eat oily and fried food..also cant drink milk and cold drinks. sob sob. its so miserable if i am not able to eat all that. so no appetite for dinner..only want to sleep sleep sleep.
he didnt visit me he want me to rest and sleep. but he changed his off day to tommorow instead of wednesday. hhehe. so that he can acc me.

28/02
cant wake up this morning and send an sms to my supervisor telling her i will reach 30mins later. she replied saying no prob. but i was late for 1hr..reached at 9.30am..due to the traffic jam. why singapore have so many cars? jammed up the whole expressway!
must be wondering why i weant to work even though i had mc rite? haha. all becuz the deadlines for my work are on tues so i have to complete and sent to them before i had a good rest.
met him after my lunch with dearie med. went to bugis to look for her and had my lunch with her since he cant make it at 12pm to meet me. med and i went to sim lim food court to eat and i could only eat porridge. so sians..but no choice. who ask me to get myself sick. hai.
he brought me to shaw house ans we watched the fog. haha. a nice show. worth watching.. heard that its a story re-made. after the show.. we went to food court eat again and i got to eat my sea cocomut! yum yum! actually i cant eat that but he dote on me ma..so too bad ;p he sent me home after that and met his friends. hehe. but he brought dinner for me after having his dinner. its frog leg porridge! he even bought 2 masks for me as he knew i lacked of sleep recently. i rushed my work and eat my porridge at the same time. :]

2nd week

2006-02-27T10:50:00.000-08:00

actually second week of attachment passes quite fast for me. whizz... hope every week passes so fast and i will be able to go back to NYP to see my ee gong dearie clan everyday le. :)

23/02
meet up with dear and went to galilee for dinner. almost had a free dinner again but i managed to stop him from doing so. haha. i know you dont want me to spend so much but you cant be occuring a loss also ma. hehee. i am so nice rite? bhb. haha. had a long dinner with dear and then go take pics. turn out not too bad but not too good either. lol. i bought a top and a skirt within 45mins. think i really can shop. haha. waste money also. argh!!

24/02
went chomp chomp with vinnce ard 8 plus. it was so crowded and we had a hard time finding for seats. hahaa. we ordered bloddy cockles, stingray and sotong to eat plus a big cup of lime juice. hahaa. sinful! only 2 of us and we can finish all the food. before i met her..i went to my gran place to eat dinner-a small bowl of rice. hehe. later on we went to coffee bean and get ourselves a hot vanilla-vinnce and blackforest-me. talked to her till 10 plus before i went home to change and meet him for midnight show. haha. dont know why i always have so much to talk to vinnce. hee.
caught the movie, rumor has it, not a show worth to watch on weekends ba. haha. rate them 3/5. so not too bad. he sent me home after that. thanks for all the things you have done!

25/02
finally had a chance to meet up with my ee gong dearies le. EVERYONE is present!! went to eat steamboat at marina south. we just talked sooo loudly there and dont give a damm to any others .hahaha. hong cooked for us.. reason being the only guy among us. poor thing hor. but too bad! wahaa. our dinner lasted for ard 2 hrs. hehe. the feeling is soo nice.. can talked slacked and get together after soo long. took group pics again and individuals pics after steamboat. hehe. my dear fa hua ci again.. love at first sight ba. saw him at marina and cant forget him liao. haha. hope you yuan zai xiang jian.
dear, hong and i went to esplanade while the others went home becuz they are either too tired le or need to go home. we took cab there and walked to the 7-11 at marina square to buy alcohol. we just feel like drinking. tot can meet him bt in the end he say too tired wana go home rest. my mood went downscale immediately and just tell him i drink alcohol. dear is right in saying sometimes things wont go the way we want. have to learn to take it in stride. anyway got a suprise from him becuz he came to find me and sent me home. so sweet. heheh. but i know i am unreasonable la.. he is soo tired but i still want him to meet me. didnt even regard his feelings. its so hard for me to change my da xiao jie temper. but i am trying to change le. dont wana let go of something i might regret later.

currently in the office with so many things on hand but no mood to do them. all my 3 supervisors all out of the office and i am left alone alone alone. . . *wink*

ARGH!!!

2006-02-20T09:57:00.000-08:00

Conclusion: Looks are Deceiving!!!!!!!!
do not think that once cute guys are always so fun to be with or are very nice guys. if you think that way then you are wrong! absolutely wrong!
i hope you can get the hint and stop disturbing her life.. becuz she is really scared of you! i have made it so clear to you that its not possible for her to call you back but i dont think you get my hint. just dont you get it inside your brain that she is so scared till she is avoiding you and cant you just leave her alone. pls.
dear is so scared till she develop a phobia of phones ringing. do you know that when a girl is scared of you means she is REALLY scared!

sotong blurrie queen signing off..
mood: freaking fucking pissed (phone low batt)

me me and onli me...

UPDATES...

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Pepper Lunch!!

steamboat craving!!

Ee Gongs Names!!!

Townie trip

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Run RUn Run

ENGALND..All The Way

Exercise time

ENGLAND vs SWEDEN

MICKEY!!!!

what have i been doing ??

ENGLAND WON!!

Retail Therapy does Help??

A Happy Me!!

Updates. . .

Calling for 4E2 Babes!!

random entry

The One Day. . .

I am a FAT FAT girlie ;p

Date with Pauline ;)

HAPPY!!

Undering revamp =)

Sentosa = Fun ;)

K-Boxing Session...

A "Nice" Encounter *puke*

MY PHONE IS BACK!!!

Piccas . . .

Shoo.. sickness.. yucks!

My VS2... S-P-O-I-L!!

After IPP. . . =)

What 'Friend' Are You?

Do This If U Are As BORED As Me!!!!!!!

B-O-R-E-D

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Personality? True?

WHYs WHys Whys whys...

Pissed but Enjoyable

The Keys to MY Heart??

been 10 days. . . .

Timetable is out!!

HAPPY BDAE MED!!

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Sticking to What I Want. . .

All my fault....

pperhapps. . .

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Another time spent with uUu. . .

SoooOoo muchh funNn

Are You Fit to Commit? quiz again. .

Shopping Spree? NoNo!

What Kind of Girlfriend Are You? quiz. .

Sick...soOo sickening

5 weeks to go go go!!

My Life Quiz

Know Your STRENGTHS & WEAKNESS!

The Seven Deadly Sins Quiz

WhOoooO..wEeKENd GoNe!

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?, The Five Variable Love Test, The Three Dimension Luck and Power Test, What Age Do You Act?,

What Kind of Kisser Are You?

seriously no mood!

To WHO It May Concern

3rd weekk downn...8 more to GO!

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2nd week

ARGH!!!

A "Nice" Encounter puke